if you the girls want to sever ties knowing this.

my past and my struggles.

i understand.

 

but i can guarantee you,

you are not in danger

nor will our children.

 

i am more civilized than you know.

 

but to some.

i can't tolerate.

that may go far without your intervention.

 

but i think the law will handle that.

 

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if you feel that you are going to be abusive,

and will not leave me at peace.

then know yourselves before.

 

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as for celebrities mocking and judging like shakira.

have some sympathy.

 

and i don't think,

she's coming from a same place.

i'm seeing this woman as something relentless.

 

On Steve...

what is the point in expressing violence.

when i'm only going to get sick.

but you the authorities,

if you are straight men like I.

or even if not.

and if you understand being wronged.

by your identity.

and mocking, harassed, subjugated by violence,

by exploitation on that assumed identity.

and it keeps on at it.

you know what i'm feeling.

you know what rage is.

 

 

now i apologize for expressing my inner thoughts.

and my past. my struggles.

it does not mean i am danger.

it means...

i look at world in a different way.

but i've yet to harm someone.

though i've seen many deserving.

 

and all i seek is peace.

 

but these fuckers...

 

they won't leave me alone...

 

my apology is towards the authorities.

but i have been saying this before. several times as well.

 

 

i am very civilized now.

i am able to feel fear.

what i mean by that is,

i have always been able to but i never knew how to process it.

and to an extent,

i survived through my own demons after my series of trauma.

 

 

 

 

"this person is playing mind games an amazed to see..."

 

there is no such thing.

 

it is application. no games. real risks.

 

i don't know who you are saying but.

 

that is it.

 

 

 

i am under a lot of stress.

and by idiots.

 

at times. emotionally my mind feels like it i about to break.

 

so i apologize to the authorities

and to the Royal family for having to read this.

 

I am unwell.

 

and they are relentless.