Want to go back working,

but i'm guessing I still have to focus on the law.

I get the feeling authorities are repeating to draw out the most out of me.

For my benefit.

Which is a fair and good thing.

but it is tiring...

 

You should have the answers now.

you are the law professionals.

though I get that some law majors only tries to manipulate the outcome by creating narratives instead focusing on principles of truth.

hence only confusion and propaganda endless cycles until it *sounds like the truth

at the surface level reasoning.

maybe you are trying to prevent that.

 

but please know, you can be more strict with them......

how many times must i endure the same barrage of deceits and gaslighting yourselves, and the public. as i become a victim.

i think that is enough.......

 

"God says you're trapped in a cycle of lust"

.........am I?

it is... fear and overwhelmingness trapped in the cycle of care and empathy. (as well as some lust)

i keep seeing mambo. no.5 and tekken 8. with songs  and images of women.

i honestly cannot psychologically and physically, emotionally handle that many.

though it may sound entertaining.

most importantly, one must recognize that i am seeking permanence not temporary.

to share a life, and divide duties, help each other, not to be a playboy.

so to dismiss it as 'lust' would be..... well, that would be interesting.

while i do get my desires coming up frequently, that's because i'm still young i guess,

but i wouldn't go so far as lust.

 

i just hope i'm not making a mistake and, i'm trying to be very careful whom i/we would be spending time with.

people are embodiment of both heaven and hell, depending on who you are.

and i am wise enough not to fall entirely for looks, but take compatibility into consideration as well.

why also i choose younger ladies. they are at a student level in many areas and i would have chance to manage that psychologically. while in other areas i would learn from them.

but say it was ms. natalie portman. power shifts to her intelligence and wisdom immediately.

i fear ms natalie portman. and some other women in that sense.

i would like blank canvas so i can paint with them. ahahaahhahahah no offense to ms portman. we can be friends.

you are a intense lady........

 

"god says, this is your final warning: control your filthy thoughts and desires.

if you do't listen to me this time i will make sure you rot"

 

i don't think this is directed at me. but say that it is.

i am monitored 24/7 through the screen.

i am an adult in modern age.

it's normal for men to watch pornography, but i haven't really except cartoon images.

then don't display my tablet screen on the public instead calling me the filth while you have no restriction in my breaching my privacy.

who is allowing people to watch me in the bathroom for instance and why is that so difficult

for the law to prevent from public display?

be careful, for asking inhumaine things as you apply inhumaineness on to me.

you are asking to forfeit part of life itself with your own assigned values pertaining to self.

good to see that you are holier than thou. don't expect everyone to be the same.

i'm the majority in this case.

i apologize if i got that relay wrong.

 

 

I keep getting that song on the relays.

That is a resounding no.

It may end up in tragedy.

But I will never marry a woman uglier than I.

Never!!!!!!!!!!