I sometimes do wish I can fight.

 

Not that I was physically weak (I could be now)

or afraid. (I would run into a fight knowing I would lose 100%)

 

 

But I left the what little potential I had of that world

long ago since a kid.

 

 

And somehow my role models became philosophers or zen masters

of a kind. Aiming at intellectual pursuits that would actually have

practical effect. (Deduced to money and health)

 

 

Although, not the intellectual environment.

 

Hence my thoughts were closer to intellectual masturbation than

practical application often.

 

 

As years passed by, I guess it wasn't a waste at all.

 

I have made a better choice for me.

 

 

Though. I would like to live a active life.

 

Maybe I can go back into it with some resource one day....