I appear to be... making bit of mistakes with my words here online.

 

At times, having been stuck like this for 5 years,

behind a screen.

 

I can lose my better senses.

 

So my apologies if I am a bit out of the line.

 

Inappropriate. After writing it, I realize, many things.

 

 

 

While I understand I am  speaking to an audience,

 

at the same time, I forget that I am.

 

 

For me, I am in front of a screen,

 

writing to a blank wall.

 

People speaking to me passively, through metaphors/relays.

 

 

 

It is.... agonizing.

 

As if the whole world is here to 'gaslight' me, while they observe

everything going on in my life.

 

This is the "Truman show".

 

I don't think something like this ever happened before.

 

Not in this way....

 

 

 

......I will just have to make the best of the situation....