That goes for everyone.

Help me out now.

This is not entertaining.

I'm turning 40 shortly,

and I haven't exactly lived a healthy life with much support behind me,
just barely getting by each month since 15 years ago.

Suffice to say, my body is not in a great condition and there are
aspects I need to take care of.

Nothing serious, but as time passes, I can feel I get worse a little more each year,
more symptoms.

Eventually, if you don't take care of yourself, by diet, psychological needs, a time to breathe.

It will become something serious.

Let me out. Not everyone started their life from the same place, not everyone has same amount of time or needs.

The fact that people see me from a base ground same as everyone else,
that is also very wrong.

There are reasons why I sought psychological councelling for anxiety.
There are reasons why my symptoms frequent.

Don't let someone suffer like this when it doesn't have to be.

 

I think 15 years is the better life.
Prior to that, who knows what was happening inside my body because of my sister.
Going to the bathroom I would see blood quite often.
And I thought that was just something because I was obese.

The aftereffect? who knows.

but even that 15 years, i cannot say I lived to optimal condition.

i am not same as everyone else. note this.