Went to the dollarstore to buy a nail polisher,

to cover up the IR port of my typewriter.

 

At the counter, i am explaining to the lady

why i'm buying it. She laughs and says

no need to explain anything here.

 

I am becoming homophobic I realize.

 

There is a lot of things to learn from the gay people.

The people I observed and few encountered in person,

have been, sensible, punctual, snappy dressers, empathetic,

and they appear to be distant from violence.

 

While i'm sure there's a lot of bad going in their community as well.

But it is something to learn from. Their mannerisms -

they seem to have this certain 'rhythm' to productivity as well.

 

I am someone who spent nearly a decade alone,

most times unless mom visited, I was a mute or talking to myself

in an emotionally catatonic state.

 

I have always wished when I was young, I could escape these moments of

social awkwardness and be like everyone else. Speak well, civil and all that.

 

so, gay people. While their sexuality is none of my business.

Their mannerisms/lifestyle are very fascinating.

they seem to be organized people. xDDD

 

 

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I keep seeing these relays about gay whichever things. This is defamation.

 

Note, truthfully, there is no reason for me to hide gayness in all their glory, had I been one.

Nor would I want to ruin a beautiful girl's life by asking her for marriage.

 

While, i have ran from physical intimacy all my life, due to my insecurity and,

situationally, unable (ready) financially or otherwise, (and deep fear of commitment long ago,

as i know if you choose the wrong person, you can destroy your life.)

 

this doesn't mean I don't dream about women. I always have.

 

In fact, once you know what love is, lesser you can't settle with.

I think people know that their spouse changes you, they become your future.

With that spirit you feed off of. That inspiration for life.

Because of this person.

 

I have always sought this.

 

And, there was indeed a heartbreaking moment watching Shrek's wedding scene

(Rather Fiona and Lord Farquaad) and the music comes in. Forgot the title.

 

Reflecting on Ms.Green long ago. (This was ages ago)

 

(I am mentioning this only to tell people my values, don't get the wrong idea Ms.Green, I truly wish you the best)

 

this was when I was a kid. Living alone. Asking her for a 'closure' (email) that never existed. xD

 

While it was a simulation, as I have not really known Ms.Green at all.

 

But that was all I knew at the time. :|

 

 

 

Anyway. I hope this is a mislead. To get me angry.

 

If not, these people attempting defamation, they need to be charged.

 

For all their previous attempts as well.