furthermore,

 

moving from one place to another without support,

near this same location,

prone to danger, attracting all sorts of abuse

from everywhere. online or offline.

 

i need to get out of this.

 

 

please don't be stubborn.

 

 

i will update honestly,

 

but even with the shelter,

 

it cannot progress this way.

 

 

i need medical care, dental.

my psychological care i want to seek.

this situation is prone to madness/anxiety,

emotional outbursts, anger. it's NOT FUCKING FUNNY.

 

and as I generate more ideas,

there is no doubt that Mr Musk will abuse further.

thinking that it IS funny.

 

and delay even further, and further.

 

im tortured, driven, fighting with my sanity.

 

 

so this is enough. it doesn't matter shelter or not.

 

social office themselves, they can't understand the situation.

 

I tell the lady there today, but she just accepts it instead

believing in my words. she just knows that i'm in trouble

and she wants to help. there is a difference.

 

Mr Musk will no doubt be abusive, if my situation is seemingly 'fine'.

 

only at the very very last moments when i'd be in danger,

he *may or may not choose to help.

 

but until then, he will keep things like this.

 

I know.

 

at this point i can read his movements.

 

JUST STOP.

 

 

I've done enough. I've helped enough.

 

It's your turn to help now. Deliver your promises.

 

I will work on whatever is remaining

as I fix myself. I need medical care,

I need proper diet.

 

I want to be alone to focus.

I don't want to be living under someone else's roof.

Subjected to potential abuse from all directions.

 

Further, this situation will be exploited by Adam,

or whomever is hacking still.

 

And it's another landlord trying to harass,

or roommates. I don't know.

 

You leave me like this in the open,

thinking that it's okay.

 

Trying to control my life.

Stunting my benefits in purpose,

trying to manipulate it to whichever result.

 

Whether that would be me generating more ideas for more rewards,

or those ideas going into control of the investors instead myself,

whichever the 'agenda', good or bad, irrelevant.

 

i am not well,

i cannot be in this situation,

i cannot be in a situation where everyone can make me a target,

and continues to do so.

 

So this is enough.

 

Please understand.