I'm gonna try and get stronger. Start exercising...

Must create the best optimal self.....

can only handle 60kg one hand or so...

but then i am just fat and obese so...

maybe there's soome potential for growth. XD

 

maybe i can handle more but i don't have enough money to buy weights XD

so... i will eventually try testing my limits...

fairly confident with 60kg one hand just dead lift. but that isn't impressive.

hopeffuly to attempt 80kg one day XD

 

"love the way you lie." eminem.

well i did 40kg somewhat easily.

i think i can handle 60kg.

unlikely 80kg. but i think since im fat and weak maybe potential.

if i can move 40kg up and down above my waist multiple times.

i can at least deadlifdt 60kg with one hand, that's my calculation.

but not with 80kg. XD

 

which is fairly normal by the way.

anatoly is crazy. he's like lifting 200kg with one hand. XD

 

what makes you think i like to lie?

 

i would like to believe 80kg with one hand right now.

but i think that is over my head.

delusion maybe XD.

kinda feel like i have this confidence hmm...

i mean just to lift it off the floor a bit with one hand.

 

anyway.

i will improve myself.

that is what is important.

and in all areas.

 

 

well im taking sleep meds right now so my muscles will atrophy for some time.

later i will exercise. XD

 

need to sleeep.