ahahaha my perverted jokes.

I am offensive.

Apologies.

 

 

My mood is. Manic. Bipolar I believe.

It goes from one end to the other to the extreme.

I guess my mind is trying to just make the best of the situation with positive attitude,

and then it caves in to despair then raging against that to uplift myself once again.

It is a vicious cycle feeding off of myself.

But I am sustaining.

On a higher level, it must come with almost religious principles.

And I have to empty my ego and even desires, and simply be grateful for the now.

Which is difficult because the spirit requires more than simulatory visuals through the screen.

It needs interaction, if by the environment itself.

So once I can get some money, I hope to walk to the nearest beach and just stroll around at least...

That is bit far away, so... I might have to buy a motorized skateboard.

I want to go fishing but there is no money for that....