i kinda get a little mad when ariko shows up there and acts like she had this great affection for me when  she clearly did not know me enough to care as much as she claims, and if she did, made a clear choice to devour another man's penis at the senior year.

so i'm sorry but why do you keep creating meaning to what doesn't exist? not as much as you say.

it makes me look like ive lost a great deal.

you were a strong crush, that i've chosen not to manifest because i knew my own limitations. and you moved on within the school, not a new school, within it. if any emotions were as strong as you say, that same school, you would have waited until a new one.

i didn't mean that much to you, nor were you to me. inspiartional fantasy i grew where i had no right perhaps.

so stop. ok? draw a line.

 

weird girl. kinda shameless.

look, i honor myself when i acknowledge that fantasy, innocence that i once had in those years. nothing more.

you. not really. XD

 

no disrespect girl but you were you.

i am i.

we very different people.

i wish you well.

 

but kindly, it is weird you keep trying to create so much meaning.

 

don't ariko. draw a line. step back.

you were not the center of my life.

i was. XD

and other girls i imagined i would manifest.

didn't know i'd be messed up financially, academically, developing disabilities but.

yeah...

i've always sought after higher love.

you were, precursor to what my future would be.

sorry but you were a stepping stone........

that is how i seen you...

 

sure you were an infatuation once upon a time....

but there was nothing between us meaningful.

in fact you were a stuck up and a bit of a bitch, staying silent.

but all is understandable.

just leave me be alone with my girls.

who are ... thankfully....

not you girl....

 

i mean i wish you well but

it is quite annoying........

 

and why the fuck everyonre calling me black?

since whren did humanity categorize social 'races' when we all came from africa

and what is the percentage of my blackness?

it must be statistiscal noise.

i identify as east asian and that is what i am. stop.

i respect many black people.

but i dont identify as such.

 

now everyone is commenting my posture is bad.

probably because nowadays i feel like adam's sandler's character "little nicky".

i feel sunken into myself, alone, and suffering from hell as a demon spawn,

offspring of people who are evil.

hence my posture reflects on how i feel.

 

"easy on me" -adele/ariko.

no i won't be easy on you.

stop making excuses.

take accountability for your choices.

that's not a bad thing.

you make me happy that way.

sever yourself. be free.

i let you go long ago.

you were not forgivable.

and that was a good thing.

ok?

good for both of us.

stupid fucking girl.

damn.

 

"i was still a child."

and so was i.

don't expect me to be a grandfather who forgives. XD

 

so i am saying that because there was nothing meaningful,

if there were, you are a serious sinner.

but you were not.

you were you.

and i was a kid. that is all.

 

stop creating meaning to what is not a tragedy.

you keep creating a tragedy for me.

why are you doing that at my expense?

do you get what I mean?

get off my life.

you had your own,

why are you painting it without my permission?

you are writing a love life story for me,

one that i never had.

damn girl.

stop.

people actually believe in this stuff.

then you go down as my first meaningful love,

when you were a school slut, at least to me.

and i am saying that respectfully.

that is what is between each other.

no big deal.

 

nothing to forgive.

everything to remember.

we laugh about it.

don't assign meaning to it.

that's just weird.

and you are leveraging by creating a history.

don't.

it's kind of sickening.

sorry but that is how i feel.

enough.

go about your way.

i hope i can help you out financially if you'd like to accept it later on.

because we were acquaintance, and you were one of my first crush,

whose gone through a lot.

not because i am infatuated with you. ok?

damn~~~

no more of that nonsense.

 

i know love aint always about communication and attendance but we literally spoke once for 4 seconds. she asking some signature for mr vanjoff or something english teacher.

what the hell girl.

we were strangers but passive acquaintance with what coulda been. tiny bit bitter sweet but as meaningful or some tragedy. that is your ego talking to the mass.

dont make me into a sacrifice.

what the hell girl.

kim enga back me up on this. miyuki johanssen you too.

other girls nearby.

we werent acquainted.

william au.

come on man.

 

stop making me a sacrifice and also my girls feel overshadowed by you.

please stop.

you are like love story theft by assigning. false meaning.

enough. that is crazy.

i dont mean to sound rude or cruel perhaps.

but your failure in marriage...

cannot find meaning elsewhere by assigning...

keep true to the reality.

 

 

i think ariko is bit on the mentally distressed side..

and illusion she is creating as meaning...

it is understandable,

but it also do not make sense.

you were you on your own devouring another.

in the same school.

we didnt know each other or began anything meaningful

so why are you creating this false imagery?

friends? acquaintances.

can you please help me out?

 

 

set some clear boundaries with ariko then and now.

what was reality.

 

 

we weren't close.

damn girl.

 

"go easy on me."

"don't you remember."

1. no i won't be easy on you. i state reality of how it was. you are a bit delusional.

2. there isn't much to remember just passing acquaintance. we hardly spoke.

 

please. listen to me carefully i am not saying this out of spite or anger or nothing like that.

for your sakes.

please. go out there and enjoy another penis.

 

i want a girl to use my face as her chair,

but i must save myself for my girls you see.

 

there must be honor.

and you are creating false honor where there was none.

 

i won't forgive you because there is nothing to forgive.

because we weren't anything but could have been would be could be.

nothing.

damn.

 

 

in any case, i wish you well.

just stop parading around like we have something between each other so meaningful.

what the hell girl.

apologies if i got all these relays wrong.

 

 

one thing to be fearing on teenage girls.

they blow up. they become taller and shapely,

and their bodily holes began inviting visitors.

and if you designate your heart to their holes

you get hurt.

thankfully i removed myself before then.

made a conscious choice i must become confucius.

 

this was ariko.

i saw her future with many babies.

her motherhood from her mannerisms was revealing.

 

and perhaps i am going through the same cycle again with my girls but i hope not.

 

apologies for the rather vulgar but direct iteration.

but life is life.

we go on.

 

adele/ariko - "i will always love you."

thank you. in a subtle way, be it have been my own conjuration, of fantasy and inspiration, a sucker for beauty.

i shall love you there as well, in that past.

not so meaningful, as a crush. :)

 

 

somewhere in the multiverse, there are another variation of us in HS where we were fit and fucked eachother like rabbits. and was content. then separated. and content.

 

but this is better for us.

it is a bit poetic.

but not as meaningful as we hope.

but it is also good as it is.

 

"my son is so dumb."

 

fucking isn't everything King Charles!!!

there's a loss following as well!

my girls for instance.

and what is my sense of right and wrong and justice.

 

i get the feeling with your values you taught Prince William and Harry ways of the world in rather very direct way.

As I have imagined about Elon.

You have a maid before you,

and you said: "You watch here boyyyyi----------

this'n here!

ah--------- this'n here!!!

this'n here is how it was done~~~~!!!!!"

 

can you all visusalize how these folks are?

all about conquering.

 

and you go about the demonstration.

 

well King Charles. That is not how I go about my life.

what is gone to me, is gone.

there never was.

to hold onto what i made decisions on then back in high school.

is insanity.

i don';t get why people keep trying to unite us together.

 

stop seeing people as objects. damn.

 

 

you can see why prince william looks to be a very conservative person.

as a young man he often conflicted within the teachings from his father and went the oppposite direction.

brutal honesty does this.

 

 

 

Let us say that video clip from peter pan movie is you and me Ariko.

though not as meaningful. :)