I would have depended on the loan if I could trust they would give it to me. But I can't.

I can't trust King Charles either, he is often abusive and finds my suffering funny at times. If I am not wrong.

 

For me, the monitors were a chance to create balance.

This is to organize the law, and to try getting in the channel by purchase of equipment.

As well as, hopefully, to grow personally.

 

And without that. When the threats of being buried alive is constant, and I feel pushed ---

that I have to get in there no matter what, as fast as possible?

 

I have to be the 'monster' here and I apologize for that.

I will certainly pay back double the amount I receive from the sales of the monitors as we agreed before.

Don't demonize me folks.

 

This situation, taking my rights. By sight. And cornering me to survive stranded,

knowing that I am limited in social matters.

 

There was the greater evil.

 

I am doing what I can to survive.

 

Question is, if this didn't happen.

Would I have found a way to grab a job and sustain myself?

Sleep issues continue and whether that by this situation or not.

Could have been cured. I doubt it.

 

This situation made sure I was crippled.

And they knew this at the very beginning,

that I was a needy person.

Going to CAM-H for social anxiety, insomnia, depression,

and claimed that they "cured" me (Sean Kernan) by pushing me into insanity through abuse.

These types of announcement of control over a person's life and justifying their abuse,

these things, whatever the reason must not be taken by the court.

 

 

It takes forever for me to fight endless cycles of abuse,

in an impossible situation fighting back by hints given by what I see.

This wasn't suppose to happen.

Nobody in this modern world should be susceptible to this,

as a fair defendant of the law.

But I am making the best of the situation.

Each day it takes me time.

And it gets harder and harder, as these idiots led by Elon Musk or whomever else,

gaslights and deliberately distorts my view, to try and screw me up.

And as they gaslight the law as well.

I need all the help I can get,

and this is a matter of survival for me.

Please understand.

 

I have to try getting into the channel.

As nobody is contacting.

Why.

And I have to organize everything as you permit their cycles of attacks.

Alongside my personal growth completely stunted because I have to focus on these matters.

I am one man vs the world.

And for me, it is about life and death.

I'll get whatever help I can get.