fasting today....

ate too much meat and bread, snacks last few days...

fasting will do good...

 

When you hate yourself for emotional volatility and weakness of being,

and when you hate others as they trigger and exploit this.

You are not in a good place.

Can't die, can't live.

Your mind is intertwined with the screen and what it reveals to you.

A special type of hell I am in. One that I should not have been in.

The hilarious thing is that, even after all the interactions and evidence of interaction,

the mind still doubts. Questioning the reality and the intent of people.

I ask, how much of this is real.

And then I see my girls responding to me and I think about their age and their heart.

And they can't be corrupted like yourselves.

They can't be abusive like yourselves.

And I am following track.

 

Readying myself.

To begin a new life.

Get out of this slump.

 

And this does not mean you can monitor me to benefit yourselves.

As I try to climb up.

I have always been helpful.

And my sacrifice in isolation simultaneously under your control and stalking.

Shouldn't be allowed.

 

I understand, if there is good will, I am isolated for now, for a reason.

Until my attackers fly into a lamp as the moths they are.

Trying to destroy me.

And maybe you want me out of it, until you sort that out.

 

Elon Musk this diabolical lunatic. I believe is trying to make me look like a 'mastermind' of sort.

That I am the one whose set a trap. "Star link was a trap" in Korean came up with Elon's face earlier.

Whatever that is.

Understand that I didn't think it was possible for him to conspire to target me as I was fighting my allegations before the law, and the law was present.

Nor did I believe that by his status, and other high profiled individuals, could possibly be so low.

Nor the mass of the public that could unify together in silence against me.

When the control factor from me is non-existent, as you remove the past and state what you want to the authorities and distort the past.

No words of mine would be heard unless witnesses help.

And for you to try flipping the table, ever trying to demonize and villify the victim.

Elon. You are truly, truly evil.

Diabolical and strangling. And people like you, who uses psycho-manipulation before the law
and in business to deliver a devastating blow.

Someone like you, and the acolytes that shares these types of tactics of deceit and weaponizing farce, gaslighting lethal control as if it were something else.

As you continue your attacks.

 

I am here petrified. Shivering at your attempts to kill me.

And even more paranoid of the nature of the callous law, that does not judge humanity and pursuit of love and existence, nor justice, but to exploit by preference, discarding your obvious intent to harm.

And I would be crucified by your repeating tries.

 

All I can hope, is to confide in this justice system, that its people in it, has enough humanity in themselves to acknowledge their evil intent as what they are, instead ever trying to help you and people like Biden.

 

I guess I wait for a new beginning of fate that is assigned not by the roles one would force me into in society.

But by the observation and understanding of devious nature of the law, and its people that diminishes installation of devastation, at mere perspective through words. Discarding the suffering and dangers, the wrong the weak had to endure before power.

And that rebellion and hatred will stay with me. As you wrong me.

That fate will be inevitable when you make a choice that deviates from order of justice and humanity.

I would be scarred by it.

Anyone would be.

And live a life broken as to understanding that greater evil existing in nature of power.

That the little people have no choice but to accept that wrong by the arrogance of other human beings. Who assumes themselves better. Who assumes themselves unjustifiable rights over our suffering.

That is not the type of world I would want to live in.  

 

"love lockdown"

don't twist my words in pursuit of love and existence. i meant my mom.

while i am very fond of prospects of marriage,

i do not hold control over another person's heart.

nor is my detrimental situation both the psyche and therefore the body,

or my age, is an allure for attraction.

i holdd no hopes but simply letting it being fundamentally.

only a faint array of self reasoning hope that isn't my control,

that they would stay.

that is about it.

 

 

as for the importance of attire/clothing.

in my mind, i am here to survive.

as long as i am not cold or too dirty,

i go by with it.

i am not here to please you folks.

am only here to heal myself against brutality.

but as I recover,

of which i hope to.

i will take care of my body and mind,

and accessories will be part of that organization.

but you will not judge me for my appearance.

 

 

ok... i have to eat some light food in order to move around...

guess today is not fasting day.

 

Whatever that relay is.

This is corruption.

Elon Musk must be charged.

You know this.

 

 

Please understand that there is no chance in hell,

my ideas will be working with Elon Musk.

He is a criminal who targeted my life through my ideas.

And he must be charged, and must stay away from my life and my ideas.

Whichever the punishment will be.

 

There is serious corruption going on,

and authorities must pinpoint what they are violating by law,

after the facts of harm from Elon Musk.

This is continued crime, and these people have become criminals,

alongside Elon Musk.

 

 

So King Charles is asking me to work, generate ideas.

How can I, when this is the mafia?

Once you're in, they MAKE you work with and share your ideas

with the criminal that tried to destroy me using my ideas.

For you that doesn't matter perhaps.

You don't mind sharing with Elon Musk.

I want to kill this man for what it has done to me,

and how it shamelessly attaches itself to my life and my ideas,

after the facts of his crimes,

and justifies this in its laughter.

As if it was nothing.

It enslaves me, and taunts me.

And this court, lets him get away with it.

Why would I be working to feed the mafia?

It's like being in a gang,

they are using violence onto me.

This is insane.

When that Elon Musk is at least charged

and made certain my ideas are protected from him,

then I can continue, PERHAPS.

But this court is insane and this is pure corruption and evil.