Alright. From time to time the events become misdirected by their gaslighting, towards their advantage the narratives change, and they will try and create doubt, if not by framing.

I believe this is Anna as well. So I would like to make it clear.

And do not assert anything unreasonable so to flip the order of blame onto me.

We have gone through this, and you will be at fault.

 

Long, long ago. A decade ago probably, when I joined Quora when it still had that globe photo at the sign up page, I joined Quora.

Then from there, I began trolling around. As I was alone. I began writing what I knew or what I gathered from other knowledgeable people. Through what I read, or what I heard. I wasn't looking to network, I wasn't looking for credit. I seen it more of an organizational therapy and to improve my writing skills. And most of all, to troll around. To get rid of feeling alone.

(and to ask questions)

 

In the midst of that, I encountered Anna. Who was then a young girl. 16 maybe? I can't remember.

For fun, I wrote whatever and wrote to her in troll mode.

One trolling as I recall I wrote, as maybe a response to if someone gave you a million dollars,

I think I wrote, "what if I had a gigantic mouth and you had to have your entire head inside my mouth for 1 minute, then someone gives you a million. Would you do it?"

Something stupid and imaginative. To which I recall one of the commenters replied:

"Hey, she said nothing creepy."

 

But never did I initiate anything to her. Rather, through her passive insinuation, she showed interest to me in a relationship. I think that was when she was 17. I refused of course.

And then, she became rather obsessive as I recall.

So in my 'greater good' knowing that I am a mess. No college, no job, kind of disabled by sleep and vertigo and all, I didn't have much of a future. I didn't believe that I could take care of her and turn things around. And my tries in life with inevitable failure, wouldn't be her burden to bear, nor was I up to accepting her criticism and risk of separation and all that.

Above all, she was too young. Of which I expressed my fears to Becky. To which she replied with a "chicken" upvote. I believe.

So eventually, as Anna was bugging me in that desire for relationship. I got mad and was a bit cruel in my severing her. I think I swore a bit for not much reason.

And then, to my shock, she slept with a guy.

I remember the insinuations from Becky, and Sean, that they are trying to make a baby and went on camping and Sean relaying to me "Do you hear a white noise". So having known they are friends, I pondered their responsibility onto Anna, to redirect her. They probably have. But Anna was not the type of girl to listen to anyone.

Traumatized, I did ask her to return to me at the time, and then accepted she went away. I think I asked her to play a game with me, join me in goldeneye 007 gaming. As a last goodbye?

Before that I played fallout and created a woman character that may resembled Anna and wrote something about vanqushing these mutants together and stopping by at the hospital and Sean Kernan was laughing at how I was writing like a moron. Quite deliberately.

So I thought she was gone.

And to my surprise, the guy dumped her. And Anna became suicidal.

To that, I felt somewhat responsible and guilty because I got mad at her and she may have slept in spite. (But of course, it was her choice, no words of anyone can result into someone having sex, but especially a stranger whom she didn't even seen the face of at the time)

But I felt that way nonetheless, and wrote this words about, if a person were in a distant star,
and would see you as another star from distance, all that this person would worry about is that light of the star fading away. And nothing else matters. And that she must see herself from that distance, and never take anything personally. That maybe I was insinuating that there is a greater love out there. To try and remove her from the prospects of suicide.

And I was worried. So she asked a relationship prospect again. And while I was very hesitant, everyone on Quora was saying it's no big deal and all that (her having sex) and I bought into it and thought, hey, this is an opportunity, what girl of that youth and beauty can want someone who is 33? So I accepted. In my self-reasoning partly, and largely, I didn't want to be responsible for her suicide, she seemed quite serious and prone to madness.

So I can't remember everything very clearly now. But I do recall she going to Becky's home in Illinois and working in Starbucks in order to meet me. And I was preparing as well. She communicated through instagram and her passive upvotes from Quora and Becky, Sean and Robert was doing that as well.

And I don't know who started what first. If I thwarted her, or if she became abusive and then I thwarted her. I can't remember. All I remember are these photos of hallway inside a motel corridor with many rooms, and she was dragging someone by the hand (?) on instagram. While the person was not showing and only one of her hand extended to the person as she is walking forward. (If I am not imagining things, my memory is hazy on that. But there certainly was a hallway and that insinutation I took it as abuse)

And MANY times she did this, and... Eventually I came to realize she wasn't joking.
Because Becky insinuated that she slept with a Chinese guy, and the Chinese guy left as he thought she was a whore. That the Chinese guy was someone boring.

So I think at that point I was quite immune due to her many abuses and I found that she was okay. Not suicidal anymore no matter who she slept with. Sleeping became something of fun for her. Not serious emotional attachment.

So in that, knowing that she is fine, I left. Wished her well as well. Oh, and this was after I told her I never had experienced physical intimacy and apparently she made a scene at starbucks angry and yelling or something judging by Becky's relay... So she kind of was acting in vanity and abandon perhaps...

And I can understand her stance. To have acted irrationally, to become an adult that fast, she acted in a rush, and that is the feminist attitude she was always influenced and valued life under.
But despite all that grown up writing and values, she seemed still like a child. Making wrong choices and not taking accountability nor accepting way things are.

 

But bottom line is that... I didn't want to go back to her. She was toxic. She was abusive.

And she enjoyed this, and she always lived in the edge. And that actually frightened me at the time. XD

So I repelled her. And then she began going insane and hacking everything I have. My webcam, security camera at the kitchen. My screen itself.

And releasing that on the public.

So when I realized she attacked. Through Becky's upvotes. It was too late. Humiliating me further.

But the thing is this.

I always felt responsible somewhat.

And that I understood her obsession and infatuation and anger.

 

So at first, I was very mad and tried to get settlement off her father (who upvoted she's not her daughter or something like that not his responsibility anymore, and the father and Anna fought I believe) and also to Becky as well.

But.

Since my prospects with Adam was going well, after the presentation.

And also because i felt sympathy.

I dropped the charges.

 

And just basically said adieu and wished her the best on a new life in freedom.

And that was supposedly the end. (In my mind at least)

 

If i've given her pain inadvertently, then that was installed onto me by her efforts and now we were even. An ill-fated acquaintance.

 

But where it gets worse is AFTER this. And this is where the law must intervene.

You know the story with Sean Kernan, making threats by the upvote and going to the facility after I expressing my fears.

But as he was being given the capital punisihment, I tried to reduce that to 10 years imprisonment.
I was trying to save them.

 

But even after that.

 

THEY BEGIN FRAMING ME. WITH WHATEVER THINGS.

APPARENTLY THIS FRAMING WAS EXTREMELY PERSISTENT AND REPEATING IN THE COURT.

 

And perspective assigning.

Of which they have been doing forever, image assertion, villifying me.

 

But how much wrong can I possibly do, beyond conduct issues,

I am separated from them by distance, and I am not receiving their messages directly.

I can only offend by words,

and my being offended by them, is justified, as I was never given the dignity of being communicated to directly. How do I even know Anna wasn't trolling? With others? From the beginning.

 

In any case, I recall writing all this logic down, and I was winning the court again and again and again,

only for Biden to reinitiate it I believe, and have them frame me once more.

This went on for years.

 

And things get more sinister with Elon Musk recognizing all this and apparently conspiring together to save everyone and making me into a sacrifice, while luring me to contribute and generate ideas.

 

So who is at fault???

 

The guy who even forgave the hacking and humiliation and dropped the charges?

Or the people who went on pursuit of my harm by FRAMING the court even thereafter,

and until to the now?

 

Nope. I am always the victim.

My distance alone,

and their actions having the choice to engage or not engage, always,

must be seen in its clarity.