Despite the channel relays are showing positive sides and I am winning.

I can't shake off the thought of their zero sum games flipping the table

and the court buying into that. I am paranoid.

 

I feel like I have to fight through everything. When things should be obvious.

I don't get why it is not obvious.  Their crimes and their attempts to image assign, to frame.

 

 

I ponder I have a life beyond my existence here.

I hope so.

I would be heartbroken 'cause of the girls if things don't work out.

But.

Even then. One must go on.

 

But i'm sure things will be better this year.

I just wish I had some support and someone to talk to in the open about this,

with them telling me what is going on in the channel, admitting they have seen the channel.

 

This is like.... almost a religious battle for me.

Leaving faith on to 'God' I cannot see and assuming victory.

I am the male version of Joan of Arc. XDDD