On that relay,

unfortunately is in italian for some reason,

 

that was Adam and Mark.

if i can recall,

calling my situation one that of my own choice.

 

this is how they gaslight and create a scapegoat.

exaggerating my skills or potential perhaps.

 

fact is that i do not know code.

i may know programming from a managerial sense.

but that does not mean i know code.

further i'm not even sure if i can, i'm kind of dyslexic.

 

second, it is against the law on my end.

to penetrate and hack

but especially in the beginning.

 

thirdly, so i explored and tried all legal options.

contacting the police,

trying to ask my neighbours,

and nothing works, i'm gaslit by everyone.

and since i'm monitored my timing in hacks would also be thwarted by the people watching the screen. most likely.

 

so i am powerless.

but especially as i dont have income nor network.

however more recently,

i am discovering ways.

and i decided, i have to break the law, as you yourselves are breaking it and keeping me locked in against my rights.

both human rights and as a defendant in the court.

so this is self-defense.

 

trouble again is,

even as i have leads,

i need equipment.

to bypass skill and rely on equipment.

that is it.

 

so do not say it is my make-believe.

i genuinely need help.

always have been.

 

so to these educated idiots,

but especially in infotech, it's nothing.

anything i have as detailed trail skillset perhaps,

 is in marketing, maybe business...

i seem to have talents in making things, inventing, conceiving, planning.

 

what they do is image assertion.

but they are responsible as pedestriands whose

not only witnessed 24/7 the license plate of a hit and run,

but in communication with the driver,

and detailed driver's license info,

including their location and contact.

that's not negligence, it is accomplice.

 

and who was the person who gave biden ways to monitor me?

including these humiliation as i use the bathroom?

presumably Adam led the way, and spread across my neighbours in proximity,

invited them into the channel,

even in dangerous places like the shelter.

and mark, with adam,

doing political front with biden antagonizing me i believe.

as i am in death penalty.

 

when it would take 10 seconds for them to have sent me the link

since the beginning.

 

so don't give me that.

 

why are you making me into some whats the male counterpart of mary sue?

someone who can do everything?

i can't.

in fact, i am somewhat disabled socially, therefore financially.

and knowing that,

you all should've helped since the beginning.

 

it is not choice.

it is mandatoory by the law.

this is how they are misleading you.

distorting that reality.

sigh......

 

 

 

 

 

and truthfully to the Royal family,

as i write this,

my blood starts boiling in wrath.

 

why.

 

because if you are afraid to let me in.

even as i am winning.

you would sacrifice all this,

and my life built in that channel

alongside my prospects.

 

if i can't get in.

you would leave it there.

would you not.

 

that is when my rage enters me.

 

that is not only betrayal,

but you do not know what is killing of the soul.

before even the life in my body fades away.

 

you have no idea what kind of existential suffering,

what agony is.

to even imagine that.

that eternal purgatory lockdown.

and you choose not to help.

 

to help my attackers,

to save the mass.

 

that may be you.

 

and you do not have backup plan to save me.

but wait patiently until fate lets me in.

 

and if that does not work.

you would *let it be.

 

and i try to think positive.

even in that despair

knowing there may never be anyone coming.

 

i try to imagine authorities are getting ready.

i try to imagine the Royal family will help me.

 

do you know why i'm so weak in despair?

because this is not a matter of skill.

 

if i learn to hack,

during the hacking,

people would deiberately shut off their computer.

as im monitored LIVE.

that is the heart of people.

 

so what chance do i have?

when totality of anything i do is in your gaslighting control as the mass?

when i am agsainst the world itself?

 

do you see my point?

how completely i am and at the mercy of others?

that you put me in this impossible control,

as you gamble my life at the mercy of others.

 

 

but to you, Royal family.

despite, my suspicions,

i will keep the end of my bargain now.

 

but your initiasl betrayal already deduced that

my being buried alive is also an option for you.

and that has already scarred me greatly.