If my assumption is wrong on the "smooth criminal" I apologize.

I have to think the worst for each thing I see as relay.

The worst of the worst.

In order to defend myself.

 

It's better first to defend and get it wrong,

then say nothing and let the attacks grow.

 

And you have no idea how stressful that is.

 

It's like you are training your mind to think in the most negative of ways.

And that is for your survival.

 

What follows next is anxiety, sleep deprivation, paranoia.

And what an existence.

 

You think about that. Instead just thinking this is my ranting.

 

IF I stole ANYTHING that was Steve's or anyone.

I WOULD HAVE TO CONFESS.

IF only to end this existence and torture.

 

Why would I be wanting to GET IN THERE?

Instead avoiding you?

 

How can I possibly predict that they would only be following up on my ideas?

And that there would be no credible records to what they say?

 

And how many times did I get it right and they confessed?

 

How do you not draw a limiter to end it all, after all that, repeating offense of the same nature?

 

3 strikes law, is about repeating lies that is in vanity.

And I cannot be a victim to that, because you believe this is the boy who cried wolf,

and in the end, there could a chance he is telling the truth.

 

He is not.

And I am in no situation to lie. Or to torment myself in constant paranoia and fears. I have no fears of their framing. Because I know they are lying.

And I would have to be SUICIDAL in order to push on being in the blind, without knowing what they would have as records, or as foresight as memory. I cannot gamble like that. Nobody can.

What I have fear on, is the prejudice of this court in my blindness. So I cannot properly defend myself against your messed up reasoning. Akin to insanity or mass hysteria.

You have been susceptible all along. Why not now?

 

 

LET ME IN.