picked up 2 vacuum cleaners at sunnyside ave (345) and some other stuff they were giving away, candle light holders and what not through facebook. should not have traveled so far.

was still healing from vertigo. so i feel the effects....

but this should get me 40-50 or so...

went there for 2 large leather bags on the photo but it was taken by the time i got there...

is it worth the bit of shame dragging vacuum cleaners across public transit...

there is no shame in picking up free stuff...

for i shall donate as well one day...

for now i must function, buy myself some stuff...

there is only barely enough to survve but i can never function...

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When I was in my 20's in my self-imposed isolation.

I was watching hunchback of notredame and empathized with quasimodo as he sung "out there."

and here I am, entering into the 8th year,

i see the damn relay. "out there."

i never thought the world would be shoving that onto me unless i first label myself that way.

but it happened.

Authorities, please let me in.

let me find my freedom.

can't find "out there" disappeared from the relays with refresh but now "heaven's light" comes up.....

kindly let me find my life.....

please refine, let me in.

it wasn't that relay, "out there", but it was in blue.

but it just appears randomly without my typing...

anyway,

you should all know by now i am a complete victim.

and they are doing all they can to subjugate and destroy my life.

biden is enforcing this. it has no right.

why do you listen to them?

let me have fair observation to my defense.

let me be part of all this with my sight.

this is subjugation of defendant's rights in the court,

and violation of human rights as well.

there are no reasons anymore once you've recognized their intent for self-preservation.

if you follow them, this is a big conspiracy.

please let me in now.

tom welling. did you become a forceful redneck

self-justifying whatever they're doing to keep me in this state,

and you want to help them for self-preservation?

i keep seeing clark vs bizarro.

sorry if i got that relay wrong.

but if otherwise, you shouldn't speak out.

all this is an exploitation.

subbjugation of a singular civilian.

Obviously you have all been listening to me,

and going forth with the trials with my testimony and defense.

it means the court has always been in session.

and no partial rights are justified.

it's either full rights or no rights.

but obviously you can't go with no rights.

as i have always been the victim.

the thing is, when people are searching for ambiguities

to front doubt and to label me into the villain,

that is by first taking my rights of my defense,

by observation.

that was never correct.

it is a singular targeting against a helpless civilian.

for your benefit.

i have my rights.

i should be in that court.