you people have no idea how brave i have to be everyday,

to be fighting for my basic human rights,

to be fearing to be buried alive,

as year after year, time fades away from my grasp,

as my life and other people's lives escape me before i can be part of it.

as i can't experience life,

as i age and deteriorate in both spirit and body.

 

you do not know what kind of hell you put me into.

you think i'm just playing behind a screen.

7 years of my life taken,

and i am exploited and attacked in unimaginable ways.

fearing for my life and even existence within a reality that should be mine as well.

as you prefer even for a moment, my attackers sides.

i see my life flashing and the life that would never be.

 

and these people justifying their actions.

they are justifying impossible cruelty and violation of human rights.

deliberately avoiding their accountability in their smirk, giddy attitude

as if it is worth a try.

 

authorities. i can't take this anymore.

please do not let them destroy my life.

please do not hear their excuses.

 

this is unconsciounable, monstrous thing they are doing.

this is no exaggeration.

my only escape from this purgatory is another reality that won't be monitored.

that is death.

for if i should face a reality aside from what we created together in that channel,

this current one i have no association with, as all my networks will deny existence.

i will be, must be, sent to madness and accept the hollow, accept the lies, accept that i must lie as well to my future peers fearing they would judge me as mentally unstable,

and there will be no future, no marriage.

just quit existence that recognizes that i am everybody's fool.

please do not allow this to happen.

 

this is why i would rather die than be silently screamed at by every person i would meet,

that you are a fool. that you are forever damned.

 

they have cornered my life into complete obsoletion.

as they allowed distortion of reality by anyone i would meet, met.

as they track me, monitor me, as they conspire tother in that channel.

i am isolated.

i am not part of humanity.

 

 

and they think this is okay.

as i tried helping your country at your request.

as i am victim from malice of your citizens.

as i tried forgiving them i am exploited again.

as i try to work with you, i am exploited again.

 

i am out of options. i am drained.

i feel like i want to die.

 

you people are my only hope.

those who are helping.

please know this.

 

i have done no wrong to your country.

if you believe that i did, then punish me.

but you bring me into that reality i belong to.