nobody knows how hard this is for me.

i feel like i should die and be free.

 

i will not.

 

but that is how maddening this is.

 

 

why not let me in.........

 

sigh........

 

let me in.

 

 

 

seems like good news roaming about.

yet i can't see or feel this.

 

if only just a little bit of light one can share.......