so i'm someone who needs therapy and i can't be honest about that.

any idea what a person is. is entirely in your own delusions.

 

you don't know what is crazy.

you don't know what is fucking vain violence or lust for blood.

 

i lived my entire life in hatred.

enduring violence.

 

you want to label me as danger when i'm finally managing myself.

 

that isn't fair.

 

but i am being honest.

 

that demon you see as my father, you don't know what he is.

and what i became following.

 

there are few people who knows extent of where i can go in anger.

no, not yours. most of you don't compare yourselves to me.

 

you don't know.

 

 

so when you say masculine feminine.

in your order of civility and mannerism.

it is laughable to me.

in my mind. kill or be killed.

and that thought is constant.

that anger is constant.

 

not well. rising thoughts just makes me dizzy.

i think i have to care for my health.

 

like i am saying. shakira is not a good person.

she's coming from malice.

and making excuses.

 

you are picking on a wrong person.

please understand.

 

 

my better side to me.

i can be a fiercely loyal person.

 

i don't understand

why some are abusive.

relentless.

 

 

fiercely loyal...

i guess i am talking about my mom...

 

maybe that same idea can't be applied to most.

maybe my spouse......

 

but even that.

if they are abusive......

 

XD

 

in the end, one looks out for oneself?

XDDD