"They lie, wake up!" -Kratos.

 

I wish I can see what they are doing.

 

I am seeing this weird relay,

earlier from Adam,

I don't know if that is actual Ms Angelina Jolie,

but the quote was:

"If you are asking for help to multiple people, you are asking for attention."

something like this.

Now I am seeing from the Youtube shorts section, in the avengers movie.

Ironman talking about Loki as if he wants attention.

This is the video:

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I am not an attention seeker. Truly.

I have social phobia. I don't like meeting people.

Let alone being seen by many this way.

And yes, I have always been the victim.

 

 

I also seen earlier many times through the relay, Wolverine = Elon Musk,

to Deadpool, that i'm an immature attention-seeking whichever.

Again. I may be comedic sometimes, but this does not reflect on my actual lifestyle or who I am.

I think people confuse me for an entertainer or something like that.

I was just making the best of the situation and trying to stay positive.

 

This experience however, did change me quite a bit.

At least in terms of how i'm looking at society and dealing with it.

I think I have much better understanding of people now,

and in different demographics, that is by education, profession, age, 'race', location,
I think I have had a chance to generalize the mass from this distance.

And ultimately, I think I get the general sense of how most people are.

Though every individual is different.

And I look at this in a strange way.

I understand better now, so I fear less.

Also at the same time, i've come to realize, I am a very different individual as compared to the mass.

Neither good or bad.

And realizing how isolated I was even as I was little. Looking back.

So just kind of, living life without developing much attachment to people...

And understanding the world in my own way.

But it is certainly different from what I expected...

 

I gotta sleep, it may not make much sense.

Nor do I have energy to elaborate on my perspective. Doesn't really matter.