There really is nothing I get out of this.

 

 

Douglas gets publicity due to my status.

 

 

It would just be leverage for him.

 

 

 

Why do I bother?

 

 

 

 

I would be helping this guy in many ways.

 

 

 

And there's no reason for that.

 

 

 

 

Not that i'm afraid of getting beat up. That's already done.

 

Why create humiliation for myself I have no idea.

 

 

 

 

 

So how about this? I'll compete later with different people.

 

Aside from Douglas.

 

 

It's just degrading for me to fight him again.

 

 

You can measure out who is better by your conception. XD

 

 

 

Of course, I won't do well in other competes either.

 

How did it come this far by the way? LOL

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just trying to quietly wrestle with my computer at all times...

 

Even in the shelter. Trying to be productive,

 

trying to avoid fights and...

 

 

People just keep on latching on to me.

 

 

 

And that is what I hate about this.

 

 

Because of my prospects,

 

 

I am becoming a target.

 

 

And I shouldn't give into all that.

 

 

It doesn't have much to do with me, when i'm trying to focus on my life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Douglas has been pursuing this for quite a while now.

 

Despite me trying to end it.

 

 

 

There is no good that come of this, not for me.

 

It's i'm being sucked into a funnel, cornered without a choice.

 

 

 

Everything feels this way.

 

As people are attaching themselves to me.

 

 

 

 

 

So... I think it's better to just drop it.

 

You win, Douglas, as I have said before.

 

 

I don't want to waste time on this.

 

 

If I were to focus on productivity using this time.

 

It would mean many billions.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I think I will compete in some other ways.

 

But aside you from being part of my life.

 

 

I am not here to give you benefits because of myself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hope that makes sense to everyone. hahaha