Oh dear. A rematch with Douglas?

 

Must I humiliate myself twice?

 

He will most likely pummel me.

 

Size difference is too great.

 

 

I'll think about it. LOL

 

 

Thank you for your support Mr Tyson.

 

But do you really think I can win? hahaha

 

 

 

In any case, right now,

 

all I can think about is finding some balance.

 

 

That is, for self-improvement/productivity.

 

So struggling. Just to make that 1500 or so...

 

 

If I can get that then, I may be able to generate some income...

 

Hence lifestyle will change...

 

 

Why must I live like this?

 

Why is there no support at all........

 

Note: The psychology of Douglas is more dangerous than his size.

 

As I mentioned on the Key and Peele video. XD

 

 

Don't expect much from me in this area people.

 

Somewhere along the way, i've become too gentrified...

 

hahaha

 

 

Long ago, I may have been bit of an animal...

 

Not no more.... XD

 

Wait a minute... Seeing as Mr Tyson is teaching Douglas moves,

 

are you all trying to get back at me for me versus my attackers in the court?

 

Through Douglas?

 

Sigh... Recognize I am in my defense.

 

But it just sounds like everyone wants to beat me up. XD

 

 

 

I wonder if there's any advantages in humiliating myself twice... hmph...

 

 

 

 

I don't mind getting beat up. It gets my mind off of things actually.

 

So not the physical pain I fear.

 

But what I do fear is the public perception.

 

 

Why does everyone want to make a fighter out of me,

 

who is nowhere close to it. Physically, psychologically. ROFL.

 

 

Don't want to sound weak but my movements are quite limited

 

as I constantly feel this vertigo lingering.

 

So if I were to fight, hopefully i'll land some punches. LOL

 

 

 

But really, throw out your better expectations.

 

I don't have that fighting spirit in me anymore.

 

hahaha

 

 

 

For now, i'm gonna try and finding balance.

 

That is research with my work,

 

and just going to try and get fit.

 

 

 

You all have no clue how far away I am from being any sort of a fighter. hahaha!

 

 

It could be years from now. Or none at all. If ever will be a fight.

 

 

Right now i'm in a 'slump'. I feel aimless. Like walking on clouds.

 

 

I am traumatized by all this, but I have no regrets.

 

 

Just going to try and find at least some amount of normality.

 

 

Kindly understand that I am unlike yourselves.

 

 

Going through severe depression.

 

 

 

I aim for health. Both physical/psychological. That is my aim.

 

I fear i've rotted permanently over the years...

 

 

 

Girls, don't expect much.

 

Just know that I am going to try and improve myself in many ways...

 

 

Assuming both operating from fitness, there's a good 40 lbs difference between he and I.

 

Reach of arm will be different as well. Hmph...

 

 

 

LOL i'm gonna get pummeled.

 

 

 

 

Which brings about the next question... Shall I keep my rotting teeth in order to keep the integrity of bone.... hmm...

 

More teeth means stronger jaw? hahaha

 

I may have a few I need fixed... XD

 

 

 

 

I have two left feet Mr Tyson. Basically, I can't register any body movements in my head.

 

So it would be impossible to train me. hahahahahahaha!!!

 

 

 

I'm gonna die everyone!!! ahahahahahahhahahaha!!!!!!!!