And I think David agrees, turning the knob on blue = yes,

and the plug, near the hole. (to tell me to stop talking)

 

there really is no more to talk about now....

 

i think everyone gets the point...

 

 

i will only report the repeats.

 

 

 

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unrelated...

 

looking back on life. 40 years.

 

just a blink in the grand scale of things.

 

why i am here washed up.

 

haven't risen anywhere.

 

i remember my father, sister, trying to tear me down.

 

only thinking for themselves.

 

people are deterrence to each other, to their own goals.

 

it should not have happened this way if there was order.

 

40 years. it's just a brief moment in time.

 

it means people did everything possible to make it chaotic.

 

looking back it was like this in my own family.

 

 

and i don't think. it is like this in every family...

 

but there are some elements of that same forceful nature

 

that deters each other from thought and creativity.

 

 

they create that environment. they create limitations...

 

people are better off being alone and seeing things as they hope to.