However, today. Listening to this Korean song.

 

Says something about,

 

why these events came back,

because the "spring" was too short.

(hopeful days)

and it is coming back only to

be scattered across, to disappear.

 

that song reminds me of extended family.

 

but. they have made their choice,

and i have made mine.

 

from what i'm reading, it sounds like

they are blaming me, trying to turn the table

around. but i was not the one who severed

contact and fell silent during important times.

 

to eileen, those were after all that was observed,

and i could not handle their prejudice,

and their pride. i would've been treated like an

imbecile just because i haven't entered college.

 

that would've been silent slavery enduring

judgement all the time until i can prove myself.

 

and i wouldn't be affected and take all that

until that time. they wouldn't be worth it.

 

you shouldn't have treated someone that way.

you shouldn't have treated me in that way.

 

but i remember the past and yes, it does

bring up emotions. but that is what it is.

 

lol David just gave me a package,

shipment often in the lobby.

 

so for David, it's no big deal it seems.

for me, it is incredibly disturbing.

 

but of course he will repeat...