Before I forget, i'd like to write something.

 

I want to clean the stairs, I really do.

 

 

However, when David has expresed himself in a manner that

is about intimidation and subjugation by aggression,

 

as response to many things,

 

 

what happens is that if I were to respond to this

with cleaning anything,

 

it *becomes submission. It *becomes derogatory.

 

 

I of course, never wanted to involve pride.

 

But he's made it this way.

 

 

It would much be like giving in to terrorist demands.

 

It would be wrong to do so.

 

 

So this is why I will not be cleaning the stairs.

 

 

And no, under no circumstance, no excuses can be made for

 

substitution of his actions, assuming he has the right to

 

affect my ears. That is simply physical assault.

 

I am still suffering from the effects of few days ago.

 

 

And if anyone is buying into his excuses.

 

If say my room smelled, that is why he went into banging/slamming the fridge door,

 

or if I didn't clean the stairs, etc.

 

 

That is bogus excuse for his own pride.

 

I have requested politely because it is about an ailment that can be triggered.

 

The two instances cannot possibly correlate.

 

 

He has taken the initiative to become abusive in replacement to ego.

 

Do understand that you created a cycle.

 

 

 

And yes, he should be charged for few things,

 

that is again, stalking (1), harassment (2), assault (3).

 

 

 

This is how it is.

 

I am stating my defense right now.

 

 

And that is why I will not be cleaning the stairs. I really wanted to.

 

But he's made this into some kind of rules of subjugation and installation of fear.

 

And derogation/submission to this if one gives into such expressions.

 

 

Please do understand how wrong it was for him to make excuses for his physical assault.

 

 

 

Furthermore, being affected emotionally, that is *not because I am sensitive,

 

but because anyone would be so, under such environment he has created.

 

That it prevents me from even cleaning my own room. Not as defiance for this,

 

but being affected by mood, and depression. Because it spirals someone into

 

emotional madness as well.

 

 

However, I am trying to get back up now.

 

 

And I am saying this in all fairness. How David does these things is from a place

 

of cruelty. A simple reminder would have sufficed verbally. But don't do that now,

 

not after all this. I cannot be listening to it.

 

 

And certainly it is NOT about the cleaning, that is part of it.  

 

Rather he has expressed himself in anger and aggression based on what he sees on the channel

 

as my statement to many things he disagrees. Which is communicated to me over the bathroom sink as well.

 

 

So in combination of these things, I would be living a derogatory life,

 

one that is close to slavery under abuse, should I be cleaning.

 

 

He has often made things territorial as well. Asserting unnecessary ego into things.

 

Such as putting a small box beside the bathroom door at one point, in order for me to tie my shoes,

 

by placing it on there, (of which he visibly annoyed by and I must explain myself)

even though it is right beside my own room.

 

or noise I am to make going to the bathroom, shares of spaces, such as the closet beside my own room.

he has the whole living room space, the porch, and the cabinet in the boiler room as well.

and yet claiming that space (the door beside my room) is mine he claims with an assertion at one point.

 

It is lopsided to his reasoning, and also it is mentally ill. How he is territorial over shared

spaces.

 

Combined with toilet unflushing, and these aggressive assertions, it is/was almost animistic by nature.

 

Besides the obvious malice David, these issues you have. This is something you need to be in speaking

 

to a therapist for. That you are making everything into a game of ego and dominance.

 

 

In the beginning it was much worse, even as so much stating about the music i'm listening to

 

getting mad stating his personal preference. I don't think he is a racist, so I will not

 

state this in reference to the comment during then. Just a spur of the moment thing,

 

possibly by the previous roommate whom he has fought.

 

 

 

But it is certainly the combination of all these abnormal behavior that is going on with David,

 

that I have recognized his mental illness, which progressively becomes worse over time,

 

and exploitative over my situation by stalking.

 

 

And that is all.

 

 

I didn't want to write again, anything can trigger David at this point.

 

But seeing as though he leaves the light on, on the stairs, and presumably making excuses

 

for his behavior. I must state my defense.

 

 

He has made it incredibly difficult to live and cooperate in a normal manner,

 

by his aggressive and abusive behavior.

 

 

And before you make your own defense David on the above, with shallow reasoning.

 

Get to the nature of this. You know I am speaking the truth,

 

and you know you have been territorial, delusionally authoritative since the beginning.

 

As if you own these spaces.

 

 

So don't cherry-pick instances and reasons lopsided to your favor.

 

 

All that you did here, was about harassment and abuse,

 

which later became series of assault, knowing the outcome of my ailment.

 

And because you chose not to go about these things in a civilized manner.

 

 

 

We are done, in terms of exchanging pleasantries, formality.

 

It would be a mislead to each other.

 

So if you see a package, shipment made to me, don't relay this.

 

As you said, to leave you alone. Leave me alone as well.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To have endured all this, both the emotional and physical.

 

Since the beginning...

 

 

 

For lack of a better description.

 

I felt like some kind of slave working under a authoritative abusive master at many given points.

 

And I simply had to yield to it.