Sigh...

 

 

Please note also, I take NO pleasure out of antagonizing you.

 

I never wanted to.

 

 

 

It's just you. Both of you in fact, I believe.

 

 

Such domineering personalities, controlling, insensitive,

 

without respectful question. You make these choices.

 

 

 

I am... nearly 40 years old.

 

I have had share of impossible hardship,

 

not something I can let go, but I am haunted by it day and night.

 

You may laugh at that.

 

You have seen infinite number of people who has had their own

 

share of pain in their lives.

 

 

 

But how you treat me, is as if i've just begun this life.

 

As if I had no emotional binds to certain people.

 

As if I would quickly forget. Quickly be left of this.

 

As if a child who would forget the next morning.

 

This is not me.

 

 

While I joke around endlessly sure,

 

it is disarming for you, and many others, your guard.

 

But I am sorry, that is not me.

 

 

I do not wish to impose my ego.

 

I do not believe that is where my statements are coming from.

 

But rather, it is pain and anguish that I am speaking from.

 

Pain and anguish caused by the people you connect.

 

 

 

And I am tired of convincing.

 

 

I do not know you King Charles, Queen Camilla.

 

I do however know that for most cases, Princess Kate and Prince William

has been straight-forward. With the exception of defending your errors.

 

You have not been.

 

 

 

And I fear for your persisting control.

 

And all the more, our good-will and trust, severed because of it.

 

 

Please do not allow that to happen.