By the way Ms.Greene,

 

reading from Evangelion relays,

 

you are saying you did that in HS because I never made my move.

 

 

 

...ok so you did that. that was your choice.

 

i made my choice as well i guess so.

 

 

for my life, love was out of the option.

 

it was more than just luxury.

 

it was something overwhelming.

 

overwhelming responsibility.

 

(you can see how my life was up to that point and beyond)

 

so we both made our choice.

 

 

 

what makes you think you can return 20 years later.

 

after having had multiple partners by this time.

 

and many kids.

 

 

 

it sounds like you didn't grow up at all.

 

you need to now.

 

live a good life.

 

 

 

 

my perspective is this.

 

you don't do that. you don't do that out of spite.

 

and certainly, if that emotional attachment was present with you,

 

then we should have spoken. before you did.

 

for me i think i decided it is best to let go.

 

that wasn't the right time or place.

 

we simply existed in a different timeline.

 

as far as prospects of relationship goes, different worlds.

 

 

 

dejavu. i think i'm repeating myself.

 

i see you *keep popping up,

 

saying "you can't do over."

 

.....of all the people, you really don't have the right

to say that girl. hahaha

 

all the best.

 

 

just be a friend. be supportive.

 

i think there's many relationships out there that

is equivalent to: "always be my maybe."

by fantasy.

 

nothing wrong with that, but when you assert

strong emotions despite me having stated i've moved on.

 

it's just very binding.

 

don't do that.

 

 

furthermore.

 

 

i am not who you imagined.

nor are you who i thought you were.

 

people build up images in their heads of who this other person is

often.

 

if you are willing to be friends, we can always verify

who we are, and how we were not so compatible in the future.

 

hahhaha

 

 

so stop messing around saying "i'm going to kill myself"

 

and all that. what the hell girl.

 

where is this passion coming from.

 

completely irrational.

 

 

 

 

let's meet one day and hang around with our friends.

 

if you want to meet one on one with possibly a chastity belt wrapped around each of us,

 

then that is also good. hahahaha!

 

 

no really, we gotta have some tea and talk openly.

 

there's a lot of entangled emotions in you i'm sensing.

 

something that's built up over the years.

 

maybe you feel you've missed out on another life.

 

 

but i don't think that is the case.

 

i myself know this because my life was fucked up as hell.

 

 

whatever it is. stop saying you'll kill yourself.

 

when something fades from your life,

 

something else replaces it.

 

that is way it is.

 

that is how it always will be.

 

there is nothing to worry about.

 

you are just being impatient of how things became in your life.

 

but there'd be another world waiting.