and i'm sorry you had to read that.

 

when i say public trauma,

 

it wasn't only me he was violent towards,

 

ironically he was protective at the same time.

 

but in the end it was about his ego.

 

 

what i mean by that is,

 

once a orphaned kid, scratched my face with his fingernails in class,

 

i was in grade 3. he beat the kid dragging him across the classroom

as the teacher watched.

 

another kid, coincidently, also a orphan,

he was dragged across the cement pavement, and his legs were, the shin area it was bloody,

as he beat him in front of the gate.

 

another one, not orphan,

about 5 years older than i,

 

beat up in the apartment complex,

in front of his father.

 

 

when we came over to Canada, in the school yard,

another kid, at elementary,

 

he was held and lifted up by his shirt below his neck,

with two hand as if to strangle him, as he was a bully.

 

 

so it wasn't only me.

 

if you were to think then was this guy protective?

 

then why would he hit his own son?

 

ask that question in yourself.

 

to some, ultimately it is about themselves.