am going to spend some time, focusing on my offline 'life'.

which is about sustenance.

going 'stabilize' my mindset as well.

it is highly unfocused, distracted.

as if I have ADHD. (I do not, but depending on how i'm distracted, I can never focus)

then i will be back.

I have developed some serious trust issues with all of you.

"abusive people" is a recurring thought, to my supposed allies.

you can help, should you choose to. you can find a way.

and yet......