am going to spend some time, focusing on my offline 'life'.

 

which is about sustenance.

 

 

going 'stabilize' my mindset as well.

 

it is highly unfocused, distracted.

 

 

as if I have ADHD. (I do not, but depending on how i'm distracted, I can never focus)

 

 

then i will be back.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have developed some serious trust issues with all of you.

 

 

"abusive people" is a recurring thought, to my supposed allies.

 

 

you can help, should you choose to. you can find a way.

 

and yet......