5 years in this.

 

I've lost everything.

 

 

Confidence.

 

Balance of mind, emotions.

 

Lifestyle, non-existent.

 

Better routine, like hobbies, exercise, learning for myself.

 

Nothing.

 

 

 

You think because I am rising due to this 'rewards',

every time I come up with an idea.

 

 

I am more or less a zombie. Lifeless.

 

Only emotions that dwell in me are negative ones.

 

 

 

And when better prospects are imagined,

 

suspicion emerges.

 

 

 

This is what you people put me into.

 

 

 

 

That is enough.

 

 

 

I've delivered enough for you.

 

 

 

It's your turn to support at least a little.