On Douglas, I can't even remember all the aggression he's displayed

in the shelter.

 

Please reference my previous writing. My memory isn't as good as before

while i'm like this.

 

 

But as I recall...

 

That manic prayer,

The emotionally catatonic attitude, (deliberate aloofness)

as one tries to speak, and suddenly turns to the phone,

ignoring and getting out (in repeat)

defiant behavior even after agreement,

"come on, let's go" (to fight) as a response to me,

trying to defend myself in that group, trying to show that i'm no threat.

Not hearing my words when I say i'm not dressed properly for this,

or to fight like a "gentlemen" (shot for shot) with limited/restricted movement.

And judging by the relays, he got uncontrollably angry and he was the

one knocking on my door at the shelter? I thought that was for someone else?

No idea.

 

I am seeing from the relays, this guy is making me look like some liar.

 

I am describing who he is, from exactly what I experienced.

 

 

Paranoid, changing his emotive state to anger in an instant,

self-reasoning to the point of no civility or reason, lopsided to his advantage,

(does he bring out "God" in this, that he is on his side? What does that make me,

the devil?) (Further, if there is a "God", do you think violence was what he would

be promoting? Or was it the devil that was speaking to you? Think.)

(I write this based on Hector's relay from prior) (This is my speculation)

 

 

Further, all about ego. You can plainly see this in the channel.

I've had it. Just take it. You won. Great.

 

Though I no longer am what I used to be, younger, aggressive (check my other

shelter days) and I don't think I can really fight anyone unless there is a

significant reason to do so,

 

and i'm sure you'd win Douglas. However, stop boasting, or gloating.

Even Mosa and Kalangai, (who are much lighter than I am) tackled me to the

ground over and over, because they built up momentum and ran toward me

to knock me down. So you, being a heavier person, and I wasn't even expecting

such movements. That's not something to boast about.

 

Now, it's not really about the 'fight' or even the effects that took place.

 

It is WAY you fought it. With aggression, threats, and subjugation.

With HATRED.

 

That is what was wrong. And you being there, taunting someone, threatening someone,

getting rise out of someone, challenging someone, constantly, comparing.

 

THAT is what is wrong here. Your ATTITUDE.

 

A broken nose, nosebleed can happen in a football game, or any sport for that matter,

 

that is no big deal.

 

But it is your THREATENING attitude, that violence is OKAY.

And on PURSUIT of this, trying to get a rise out of someone,

or expecting a reaction, or responding to everything I say,

even when you are not called out, trying to humiliate,

 

ALL OF THAT.

 

Has a lot to do with your EGO.

 

 

I've toned mine down long ago with an apology. I was momentarily mad

because of what you did. Over and over again.

 

Just as defiance. You were bullying the person.

 

What matters is that for 60 or so days, you kept it like this,

talking about me behind my back, to your peers.

 

While my apology was far, far before that.

 

And what I had to go through.

 

It was in my right to investigate and defend myself in that public.

 

The place can get dangerous,

 

but especially with my prospects.

 

 

And you were already there in that channel during those times.

 

 

So Some of this was planning, some of this was PURSUIT.

Expecting an outcome, perhaps.

 

 

Tell me, just before the fight, I did not know this,

but did King Charles offer me transference of power?

 

Or something significant was happening?

 

I don't know. Probably many reasons,

 

but self-reasoning, anger, was the issue of all this.

 

 

You are a hate-driven, anger-driven, multi-faceted individual.

 

As it is being shown right now.

 

 

Stop connecting to me.

 

 

Stop getting into my network. You are just an ill-fated acquaintance.

 

And you bring misfortunes on yourself and on to others because of your attitude.

 

 

I do not want to associate with someone like you.

 

 

I hope you can understand.

 

 

And no, I am not calling you a 'retard' that is how you first described yourself.

 

I was trying to be helpful since the beginnning.

 

 

 

 

During the 'fight' as I try to dismantle it, he wouldn't hear it.

Pushes on with anger. He just HAD to fight.

As he punched and pressing me against the ground, I hear him

murmuring "Chico" or "Cameron" in some spanish, in hatred,

then in English "I can keep go on like this" (After the punches)

(That he can continue punching)

 

So absolute physical subjugation and violence that he went on pursuit.

 

Which was completely unnecessary for what I was attempting at the lobby area.

 

Defending myself that I am no threat. Only he rises up to violence himself.

 

 

What exactly is the lie in this Douglas?

 

What about the angry, terror-driven prayer, and all the other things I am mentioninng here.

 

 

You can't admit that you have serious behavioral and anger issues?

 

 

I can retract mine. But you have too much ego to admit to your mistakes.