Mr Musk, I apologize if that is not what you meant.

 

But if it is.

 

 

You need to be careful on what you judge,

 

and what you are misled to believe.

 

 

 

Evidence is what you see already.

 

 

Don't lopside your reasoning in their favor all of a sudden.

 

 

 

Don't get involved and judge my personal life.

 

 

You don't know what type of people they are.

 

And yet I still loved them, hoping to be success

 

to go back.

 

 

It wasn't by my 'choice' I had to stay in isolation.

 

When you go through severe trauma as a child,

 

you need to go through with many things.

 

And prejudice, disbelief, people wanting to believe that

 

you are limited to this and that,

 

 

THAT only gets in your way.

 

 

You may know what i'm talking about.

 

So don't give me that.

 

 

It's their ignorance I feared, but I still tried connecting with their kids.

 

They put a stop to that, believing my sister, and no chance of

verification from me.

 

How are they trying to re-route this?!

 

 

Do you have any idea what kind of snake my sister is?

 

What kind people they are to believe in her?

 

 

So don't give me that.

 

 

 

It's not just as a child, until 17. That very moment I got out of the house fearing my father's violence.

 

You are behind, you can't wrap your head around anything. You are filled with anxiety. Social phobia.

 

You don't go out.

 

And during these times, I contacted Wongi, he replies once, doesn't reply after.

 

Chloe too.

 

I was ashamed to see her mother, which is the oldest aunt when she came over to Canada. I was obese and timid.

 

My sister has always been in contact with them.

 

She is constantly, deliberately getting a reaction out of me, and relays only the reaction and hides what she does.

 

6 months prior to mom's death. I go there with mom.

 

I can see them mocking me already, judging.

 

And after mom died, that is the rest of it.

 

And further, what was done during those times, and after.

 

Wongi's dad even sending a letter blaming me for mom's death.

 

What was their attitude, Eileen's attitude during those times in communication?

 

Relaying everything I say, everything I do, despite telling her not to, as they are my enemies?

 

The one that hurt my mother when she was sick, my youngest uncle's wife?

 

And to my sister as well.

 

They come from a sense of entitlement, and there was no loyalty.

 

Breach in agreement. Segregation, blaming. Not wanting to be involved. No verification.

 

Mocking behind my back. And in person as well. Speaking to me in a derogatory tone over the failure of my life. (Eileen) Of which she corrects that attitude,

but not without great effort. Attempting to mock me in the beginning.

 

 

Just. Don't give me all that.

 

 

They are full of false pride. And they kept me out, I was my father's son. Mom was someone to be made fun of as well.

 

 

It's end justifies the means for them.

 

 

Understand the ruthlessness behind it.

 

 

 

 

I apologize for my emotions.

 

There is a history behind it.

 

I can list many things, one by one again.

 

But that is useless.

 

I can't waste time on that anymore.

 

I write from what I feel.

 

What remains as feeling.

 

Madness, devastation, sorrow, all left abandoned.

 

I needed help. I needed someone to talk to constantly.

 

And RANDOM PEOPLE were my family.

 

People who I just met.

 

These people don't have much of a conscience, in a way.

 

Shallow things. Hateful things. Blaming things.

 

Judgemental people. Insidious evil.

 

I remember.

 

It is not any misconception. I just have always known.

 

And the kids? Most of them may be good kids,

 

but no sense of right or wrong,

 

they simply listen to the parents.

 

And parents were manipulative, parents were singularly believing my sister.

 

Parents were judgemental.

 

What love?

 

All that I held dear as a child, growing up.

 

It wasn't there for them. It was just false memory.

 

Callous things.

 

Don't speak of these people as if they are more than shells of human beings they could have been.

 

They made the choice with nihilism and abandon. If not vanity and mocking.