oh cliff climbing not mountain climbing.

dangerous stuff...

 

wrong translation.... he seemed to want me to take the risk.

seemed like a persuasion... seemed like he kinda wanted me to

get into trouble by myself, maybe an accident.

 

but that is my speculation. apologies if i'm wrong.

 

 

overall, he definitely seen me as a competitor of his sons.

 

...and, wow. the whole family with a hidden agenda.

 

Eileen's nihilism? coincidence? no.

 

masked under love, they have dual sides.

 

pride so strong, that nothing else can be tolerated above or even equal.

 

that is what i felt.

 

 

seeing by the relays, uncle said to Mark, to be careful of me?

 

careful of what? surpassing intellect? success?

 

why would he say that?

 

 

the whole family, alongside Eileen, was like this.

 

pride.

 

 

don't know about uncle. though i do think he was bit of an asshole.

 

i will be spitting on Eileen's grave.