As a teen, I always believed that I had this

special connection with my aunt, Eileen.

 

I remember this moment playing this game,

"Xenosaga" series, and in my imaginative mind,

and how Eileen could have seen me as this

character, "Rubedo" (personality wise).

(I know, it doesn't make much sense,

I was highly imaginative)

 

I think I was fantasizing about taking

her into the future with the spaceship

I would build, in that game, "Durandal".

 

Something like that, role-plays,

every better worlds I would have,

be it imagination, she was there.

 

Along with others. I've had high hopes

connecting with them and going back to

that life as a 'hero' of some kind.

 

Naive, innocent child's imagination.

 

Now I wish she disappears.