I was hoping to at least take care of the phone calls (return devices to amazon + tax returns) and take care of my foot,

 

but.

 

i can't wait any longer.

 

i will have to delay everything else again, do it in my spare time these things,

 

and go for it fully.

 

 

 

second renaissance.

 

a forced one upon myself.

 

 

 

if i can get there psychologically.

 

 

i will try.