I am seeing Mr Musk's relays on transgender stuff again.

Why this goes on still I have no idea.

Here is my stance on transgenderism.

Though I have not thought deeply about it.

Reading Mr Musk's message, I agree,

people who wants to change their gender should do

so when they are old enough.

That said, I don't think it is fair for athletes

to compete in an event once after sex surgery.

If a male transitions into female, they have

benefited from the hormones until that point.

While their bodies may weaken after the transition,

their bone structure, muscle mass, these biological

advantages remain.

Now, I would like to make something very clear;

I am not interested in such things.

Nor have I ever been.

I can imagine. As would a man would change

into an alter-ego of somekind, for brief period of time.

But that is void of all that is female.

Whatever that is.

If anyone is saying this, that is called defamation.

It's actually quite serious because i'm the one

who is stating my own identity.

Why would anyone else refute against it?

Or have the right to?

And why would I hide it? Had I such intent?

If a person is thinking about transitioning,

that is a person going through tremendous psychological

transition as well. Not just the body.

Meaning, they would be living a world trapped inside

a different gender if they do not transition.

They forfeit their freedom if they do not.

Without using profanity to express my views.

Does it look like I want to change my gender,

or does it look like I want to use what I have?

(with the opposite gender)

My sister, has the worst intention.

First she tried to label me as some mother fucker.

Then she tried labeling my mother in love with me.

Then she tried labeling herself in love with me?!

Then she tried labeling me as a pedophile because

what I stumbled into in IRC at 17. (That only time)

Then she tried labeling me gay?

None of that is true.

She has a sick, sick, twisted heart.

And she contradicts her opinions constantly as well.

While the "trans" discussion was triggered in order

to insinuate to my mother, how damaging my father

was to me as I grew up, it was a spontaneous thing

I have never spoken before in my life. I brought it

from the fact that "Silence of the lambs" the buffalo

bill character. More specifically, I think I remember the moment

when I was thinking about the person stuck inside a

dugged out hole. And that was exactly my situation.

The person stuck inside a room and cannot get out.

Then as usual we spoke about many things.

I can't remember things in detail, but it was about abuse.

I think I was trying to say it is a OCD type of illness,

hence the 'dream' connects to this illness?

Something like this.

As my mother I think she was starting to believe it?

I can't remember. But I do remember she cutting me off

all of a sudden as I was trying to engage into that

creative mislead.

Now. That is it. This was over 13 years ago.

So I have no recollection of it in detail.

To me, it was just a spontaneous thing.

As I do with others.

If it's hard to believe, for whatever reasons,

please check into my 9 years of internet browsing

history, and see if there is ANYTHING that resembles

research in trans-sexual anything. Or the pornography

I am addicted to.

I believe that sort of thing is something that

people are interested in it for a very long time.

I never was. I woke up to interest in women's body

quite early. Tragically, I still have not touched

a woman, though I desperately (embarassingly to say)

wanted to.

So then, ignore all I say above. And let's explore

the opposite end of things. Let's say, somehow

out of all those years I have lived, suddenly,

I have announced I want to become a transgender.

And also based on the fact of 'abuse' from father.

based on a dream. Based on the idea that "buffalo bill"

is not a true transgender, because he was abused.

But ok, let's ignore that.

If a person is saying something about a spontaneous

dream and suddenly stating they would transition?

Then that person, as stated in Silence of the lambs.

Is DELUSIONAL. Not SANE.

So there you go. Mystery resolved. At the best of your

assumptions, i'm an idiot toying with my mother because

i'm frustrated. At the worst of assumptions, I am momentarily

delusional, perhaps having stuck in an apartment for

nine consecutive years.

Most importantly,

Does it fucking look like I want to be a trans?

or am I trying to find a girl to marry

and treat her well?

(I will not speak vulgarly again to defend my sexuality,

and desires)

The most I would go with transgenderism,

the thoughts there of,

is with Battle Angel Alita, Alita's clone changing into

Sechs. And possibly vice-versa.

They go into this machine and change instantly.

I thought that was cool.

But no, even if such an advanced technology would be

present, I would feel extremely, extremely uncomfortable

changing it even for a short period of time.

And if something did happen to change my mind,

it wouldn't be anything about sexuality.