and yes, i believe i knew at the time her reactions.

and what was going to happen following.

becoming controversial perhaps?

 

the entire family has a light mouth. so i already know.

 

 

whichever way, i didn't mind it.

 

 

(I think there was also a chance she just would keep it herself,

which I think I told her to. obviously she didn't)

 

 

 

 

i was very pissed off.

 

 

the goal was to give her something to worry about.

 

if she refuses to understand or even accept what i went through as a child.

 

that was something to teach her.

 

 

i just didn't give a damn.

 

 

 

 

somehow i romanticized my love for my mom after she died,

 

but looking back, there was a lot of scarred emotions.

 

and impossible communication and difference in value system.

 

 

her stupidity. (and my own as well) i had no patience for.