to all the teenagers out there, and self-imposed isolated people out there

in the world.

 

be careful with your imagination. be careful what you say.

do not speak in vanity. not everything is fun.

 

parents aren't toys.

 

 

holy jebus. i never thought something like this would affect

my image. it's something i didn't even remember until more

recently. after seeing ms Kaiser's relay on Calvin and Hobbes.

 

To which I replied "ahahhahahahahahahha!"  to her.

 

and then I connected everything.

 

 

that is what it is people.

 

 

relentless force to get me back into society despite my

defense on abuse. when those many years of physical (violent hits)

abuse wasn't enough of an excuse for mom,

I 'made' up an excuse following. evolved the abuse.

 

and you have no idea how many times and in what ways

for me to evolve the idea of abuse, in order to stay inside.

using mom's money for rent and occasional marketing stuff.

 

i believe at one point, in my delusional mind, i spent 10k

just on a flight to texas to get to the marketing seminar.

ryan deiss seminar it was. seminar itself was about 1500?

 

i don't know. i was apparently this vulgar, spoilt,

stupid kid. unaware of the workings of the world,

and i just wanted further support.