1. As I have stated before.

 

I myself, isn't well mentally.

 

 

 

When you see someone declining like this, in the open.

 

 

Would you say in all fairness,

 

 

 

would you blame this decline on me,

 

 

 

or to yourselves?

 

 

 

 

 

Are these infinite prospects of rewards and power,

 

is it not an excuse to target for some?

 

 

Am I not in my right, and justifiably, to be paranoid?

 

 

Why is my stating,

 

 

placing me in the highest of highs,

 

and lowest of lows in terms of protection (offline),

(and not to seek my better psychological needs)

 

 

is always dismissed at your convenience?

 

 

 

 

Is it simply not a time for me to go out there?

 

There are still things happening and I am better off being like this?

 

 

Am I really?

 

 

I do not know if my assumption on David is true or not.

 

(And I sincerely hope I am the asshole for assuming)

 

 

but there certainly is always the tension. And there certainly is a factor

of damage between us. It is a very volatile situation...

 

 

I don't want to be blaming.

 

 

Best choice is to simply find a solution.

 

 

 

Never risk.

 

 

 

And no, I didn't make these issues up to bring myself into attention if that

is what you're thinking.

 

 

 

I'm basically, scared of everyone.

 

 

 

I hope people can find a way to contact and let me leave this terrible setup.

 

Whatever this is,

 

it is very cruel.