Yes.

 

The same boiling water that hardens the egg,

softens the potato.

 

My father was someone who could break a person

mentally with serious abuse, both psychological

and physical.

 

I suppose if there was *only my father.

 

I would have found independence and ability to

think for myself earlier.

 

But there was mom who kept me soft and obedient

in a way. She just wanted for me to follow a better path.

 

I think... Rebellion should happen in early ages

and people find independence, wise up fast.

But... I was just too weak in general.

 

In the end, it became my fault. It was my fault

that I decided to keep myself away from society -

in this self-imposed isolation.

 

Searching for this glory that didn't exist....

 

 

Why am I writing this?

 

 

Nevermind.

 

 

Entire body aching. Sudden exercise.

Morbid state of mind.