well, Mr Peterson,

 

if commenting on my 'neuroticism'

being an good predictor of incompatibility as marriage prospect......

 

 

sensitivity to adversary and all that......

 

 

it would be very true.

 

 

if i wasn't blind to all this for 4th year now.

 

 

my reaction is actually the only communication.

 

 

i should be more civil and less hostile,

 

but patience running out - this factor...

 

 

that indicates the effect of all this captive hide and seek situation.

 

not particularly my default personality or lack of awareness.

 

 

real question is, will i change after all this?

 

someone who is more willingly become more oblivious to the hostilities....

 

and not reacting to it so profoundly..........

 

 

well, that is why i'm trying to fight back as hard as i can,

 

so i have a future.

 

in any case thank you for the advice. i am self-aware.