when you feel there is something terribly wrong with you,

 

as if anxiety developed an identity of its own inside your mind.

 

mind is racing. just lying on the bed feels like you're on something.

 

how do i calm myself down....

 

 

 

when i was young, just staring at the sky was enough.

 

everything looked so interesting.

 

now it's just something that's always been there.

 

or something that no longer holds better meaning.

 

so much darkness of the past associated with it.

 

 

when the bright blue looks to me as if i'm looking at it through a shade.

 

and if there is nothing wrong with my eyes.

 

if everything i look at has a hint of despair,

 

withering away, crumbling. only moments away from it.

 

i ponder when i disappeared. T_T haahaaaaha

 

 

 

 

i have to find a way to find peace......

 

nobody is letting it.

 

losing my mind in so much sound.....

 

 

 

i sound like a poet wannabe without any talent. xD

 

just writing current state of mind.....