As ugly my communication appears to be,

on many occasions.

 

I want you to know that my natural state of mind is not like this.

I laugh, I am relaxed, I am easy-going.

 

But what I am can change under stress.

As many would be.

 

 

And. In my defense...

This, being in this state, at the mercy of everyone.


This is extremely stressful.

Not many would wish me well.

 

 

Who would be?

When 200 billion dollars are being spoken of,

and heir to the throne, (if I am correct). A transference to power of an empire.


I sense these, hostilities. People I meet.

While I believe, in all your better intent..., you must believe that no harm is possible.

Even as you are, you are free from harm, after all.

 

But.

The natural state of people are, 'attack while it is still weak and vulnerable.'

And I am in that state right now.

 

Highest of the highs and lowest of the lows, in its contradiction.

It doesn't work out.