I will attempt to fix the walls before I leave, but you can also charge me for this as well.

I apologize for my behavior.


As comparison to my prospects, and for all the things I am going through,
I believe I should have been more segregated from society, for the time being.

Then there would be no emotional triggers from anyone.

 

It is my placement here (1)
and that this channel is being deliberately notified to everyone I meet (2)

 

that has posed a serious problem and issues with people I have met.

 

The fact that everyone believes in the good of people, and leave me here like this,

until the time I have completed my work, whatever is remaining that I set out to make,

is a big risk.

 

We are relying on statistical chances, and never random factors. And in all honesty, it is better off not having any interaction with anyone, (1)
and certainly better to NOT send the channel link to everyone I meet (2).


Whether I am the issue, or the people, it is certain that this situation is volatile. Unpredictable.

And as I stated, I am always fearful. Paranoid. Afraid.

It should not be, me vs the world, when I am trying to help the world.

Not everyone recognizes this, and tries to see the worst.