I am reading Mayumi's relay on how someone is depressed

and is being "captive" by another person's lies.

And that a friend is wanting him to come out of the house.

 

Earlier today, I saw a person, a friend of David, I presume

came into the house talking to him, then using the bathroom sink.

Brief intervals I noticed when I was picking up breakfast.

 

 

First of all, I do not want to escalate anything between David and I.

If I am to say something bad about him, I fear the possibility of

passive-aggressive expression. So I would say, he has the upperhand,

and if above relay means the depressed friend is David, instead I,

I do not understand why.

 

 

So in all fairness, as I have said things in all fairness yesterday,

I will say this.

 

 

Yesterday, after I wrote the complaint about David,

a series of closing the fridge and other stuff quite loudly (at times)

occured. Probably a dozen times, as he kept murmuring to himself "fuck".

 

Whether that is because of the complaint, or his personal body state

from the stroke, it is uncertain.

 

But the effect that has on me has been quite a bit. As I still feel

the pressure inside my ears, as if it is inflamed.

 

 

Now, if that was about me, I understand. I do believe that David

has a temper.

 

But if to mislead, if i've read Mr Musk's relay correctly earlier,

and my previous conflict with him on the toilet seat being dirty

with urine,

 

His initial response was: "That could have been anyone."

Then he told me he is recovering from a stroke,

so I said, you have your reasons, and I apologize for the assumption

that you did this in purpose.

 

I came to draw that conclusion because just prior to that

conversation, I went to David to talk about it, but as he listened,

he did not respond. At all. Which made the situation very awkward.

This aloof personality.

 

IF David has insinuated that excuse again, please do recognize that

there is only two of us. Hardly ever people come in.

 

I don't like to talk about someone behind their back,

unless I feel a threat, or I feel there is going to be misleads,

or passive-aggression, that may eventually escalate.

 

Essentially speaking, despite David's illness,

I fear David.

 

This is why I am writing in public.

I cannot expect a conversation without expecting extreme hostility

of some form. I'm afraid of this.

 

And this what I say, everything. It is not a lie.

 

I have no reason to corner a roommate like this,

nor do I want him to get into trouble.

 

He just had a stroke. The last thing I want is to affect him

in any way.

 

But. As David appears to be affecting me, both online and offline.

As I mind my own business, this is why I am writing.

 

I do not want us to be connected directly or passively.

 

I want to remain in, indifference. And in distance.

 

 

 

So. Because I expected something like above relay was coming in,

 

despite the fact that I fear David's retaliation,

 

 

(I hope David will not result to aggression, and will show integrity,

 

and do not take this personally. Simply speak the truth, and leave off at that,

 

without getting emotions involved. As always, the worst thing between us

 

is simply distance and indifference after this. I am not trying to fight you

 

or anything like that. I just do not want to be affected by 'malice' or

 

passive aggression in the future.)

 

 

 

I will make my assumptions and complaints here. Please retaliate in

 

an honest and civilized way.

 

 

 

Following are some of the things I was suspicious about, and went through.

 

 

1. When I first came in, David told me to take table from the living room. (At my request)

I believe in thanks, I told him to grab the chicken they are giving away

at the Ecuhomes place. I think they ran out.

 

Then David changed his mind and said, he would want it back in the living room,

as he would rather have something there.

 

I believe I wrote this in the public, unaware David was in the channel.

 

Then after this, David was rather mad, and became briefly aggressive/hostile.

To which I replied, I am not trying to antagonize you.

 

That was our first encounter. If I remember this correctly.

 

I was rather intimidated by his personality, and way he retaliates, so I told myself it's best to stay out of his way.

 

 

 

2. I had at one point, I think 2 months after above incident, I told David I believe I am paranoid,

and asked, do you think there's a camera in the bathroom? To which he replied, in silence,

shaking his head.

 

So for some time, I took off the sticker I started putting on, on the infrared camera on the bathroom.

 

And... sure enough, relays came in, that they can see me in the bathroom. It was humiliating.

 

 

But my suspicion was, if David was in the channel, did he knew what was going on and still replied

in silence, by body movement, shaking his head?

 

 

 

3. Sometimes I would forget the sticker was on the infrared camera. And every time, David would

take this off and leave it at the floor of the bathroom on the right side of the toilet.

 

and then subsequently told me, "it fell off on its own" I believe.

 

And when it happened frequently, I realized it didn't fall off on its own.

 

So I talk to David saying, "Sorry about the sticker on the camera, I keep forgetting",

to which his blunt response was "fuck".

 

Then it happened often after that. I am very forgetful. I got the hang of it now however.

 

But when he took the sticker off, and put it on the floor, even after it was identified it was him,

when he could have just leave it on the cover of the toilet sink,

 

it was rather derogatory, antagonizing behavior without thinking about the person. Authoritative.

 

 

 

4. Or more recent times I think about 2 months ago, when I was complaining that David put a

sticker on the light switches, (Unaware that he's put them on there because of the fan and the smell

that followed. LOL)

 

I did become suspicious, as during those times, if anyone can remember, I was turning off the lights

as I was going to the bathroom, fearing the camera.

 

So if it was all about the fan, and the smell, why keep the lights on as well?

 

With the above reason I stated, did David thought it was funny to see me humiliated?

 

 

 

 

5. On the fridge, there is a very small space for me. Just enough for 2 slides of egg cartons to go in.

The rest is David's. When I came in here, I suppose I expected him to clean out some of it and would

leave me a fair share. I asked him one point, "can I move the slot up few levels" or something like that,

to which David replied to "go ahead". But I didn't as I didn't want to touch/remove his food and all that.

 

In all fairness, a space in the cabinet was cleaned out for me to use, as told by the manager, Khydup

to do so. David cleaned it out and told me.

 

 

 

6. Left side of the sink has always been filled with empty bottles. This was always there since I got here.

So that's weird for me as well.

 

I would leave the plates on the sink, (right side) and forget about it. And David would quietly put

the brush on it, so to tell me passively, to clean it.

 

But what of the bottles and jars on the left side?

 

 

7. Nobody told David to use the living room as his base. Although this is not a bother for me.

It is better this way, as the rooms are side-to-side.

 

However, if David is complaining about the odor as I walk pass by, or from the bathroom,

well, there are no walls to separate this. I tried to leave the door nearly closed after using it.

 

But to speak on the public about it, also my suspicion that David does not mind my humiliation, mocks.

 

If we were friends, and if done for a briefly period of time, that may be okay.

 

But we are strangers and we hardly ever talk.

 

Monica and Clark must take note on this as well. Even as we know each other seemingly 'well' (I was mostly trolling).

You have no right to use this in the public, when millions are watching.

 

There is a difference between talking to one person and rumors or controversies spreading,

and public announcement.

 

To be fair, with David, I initiated talking about the table. Then followed a relay saying we just fought.

 

However, these.... making fun of the person. That should not be going on.

 

 

 

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And that is about it. At other times, as we walk pass by each other, David was ok.

 

But if there is slightest of antagonization, complaints made from me,

 

I felt this sense of aggression and hostility. And I feared this.

 

 

Secondly, I feel that David is very authoritative, silently commandeering,

 

as if to insinuate that this is his domain, and we are not sharing.

 

That he is in control, and I am 'invading'.

 

 

That is how I feel, based on our previous interaction, and what i've experienced thus far.

 

 

 

However, please note that I am not writing this, in order to 'fight' David.

 

I am mentioning because of possibilities of leaving things in bad will.

 

 

I have no ill intent.

 

 

 

I say it like it is, and if anything is my misconception, then I apologize.

 

 

And in the end, all I want is to be left alone. That is all.

 

 

 

 

So please stop talking about me in the channel after all this is over.

 

 

That goes same to my acquaintances and friends.

 

 

 

 

That is all.