and by the way,

 

when I spoke to Clark recently,

a friend from high school.

 

that was the first time

I was told someone has seen me

through a video.

 

And that a channel exists.

 

Which was just a week ago or so.

 

 

 

Until now,

 

in the offline world, I was alone.

 

Not ONE PERSON told me directly,

or confirmed even the EXISTENCE of these things happening.

 

 

For me, to have been here for over 4 years like this,

wrestling with my computer everyday, alone.

 

While everyone I meet online or offline, gaslights, or deliberately deny

communicating to me what is going on.

 

 

At times, in my worst of moments, I even questioned my own sanity. Be it momentarily.

 

 

It was as if, every second of my waking moments were a figment of my imagination and I must constantly search for a way to validate myself.

 

 

 

But especially because, all these astronomical, unbelievable things are happening.

 

And in the midst of that self-doubt were the misleads, pranks, gaslights, to test my sanity,

or my character, who the fuck knows.

 

 

But understand this.

 

 

Under no circumstance, abuse was correct. Misleads were correct. Pranks were correct.

 

To someone who was already in a vulnerable situation.

 

 

 

There are many things people done wrong.

 

But especially in the beginning.