Now. What the people judging this,

 

what you don't see BUT it should be apparent to you

 

about Douglas is this.

 

 

 

That violence from Douglas is one that

 

is easily triggered enough to go into the realm

 

of life and death.

 

 

There is no limiter.

 

 

Thre is no civility of reason.

 

 

 

That is part of why the fight stopped right there and then.

 

 

And if you ignore the taunting that is going on

 

as some simple threat from agitation of what I write about him.

 

 

You think again.

 

I am treating this seriously, and it can head only one direction.

 

 

 

All that mild mannered, or friendliness from Douglas

spoken so far as civility,

 

that is but a mask. It holds no meaning because

 

this person is capable of throwing all that away on a whim.

 

 

That is the violence I sensed from him,

 

and I am taking this seriously.

 

 

 

Point is this. Why should I?

 

Why should I have then?

 

 

Over what?

 

 

Over NOTHING, this person goes into the hostility in the realm

of life and death.

 

 

I can easily see this idiot stabbing someone with a knife,

uncontrollable as to his own emotions, repeating "mmm!", "mmm!!!"

as he stabs in repeat.

 

 

That is what he is when he is mad.

 

It is madness without a conscience behind it.

 

 

 

And this is where it is escalating towards.

 

I cannot back down and ignore it with a simple taunting,

 

 

as i've already seen his violence,

 

and to ignore this on my end, would be end of my own honor.

 

 

Because it is injustice, it is violation to someone's honor.

 

 

 

If a person wins in a fight, that person, should have have

any integrity,

 

should not be trying to humiliate the person.

 

 

If what I say about Douglas is the trigger factor of that anger,

 

I am saying all thing in relation to what happened AT the shelter,

 

nothing more than this.

 

 

But what was done prior in the channel, was gloating,

 

humiliating the person just after the fight.

 

 

And that will persist as well.

 

 

When I say this person has no sense of,

taking in on danger,

 

 

escalating violence at a whim,

 

escalating so that retailiation MUST be present.

 

 

Despite having a family to care for,

 

despite having a life to live after,

 

 

 

that is not an understatement.

 

 

And I am trying my best to NOT go down that road with this idiot.

 

 

 

 

There are hundred ways I can destroy his life as well.

 

Be it that I am no longer capable of a fight.

 

 

 

But to think this itself is VERY wrong.

 

 

OVER WHAT.

 

 

 

and OVER WHAT did the fight, that escalation happen in the

shelter as well?

 

OVER NOTHING.

 

 

 

It is precisely BECAUSE of his values, his behavior that

ESCALATES it to violence, when it does not need be.

 

 

I am not speaking from a snobby, smuggy place,

 

people keep getting to that emotive reasoning,

 

 

because my place, my position seems to be in the

realm of intellectual pursuits and weakness of physical

'prowess' and being a 'pacifist'.

 

 

No. I am trying to hide anger, because it is NOT right to do so.

 

I have emotions like everybody else.

 

When this guy is taunting, after loss from a fight,

 

I want to get that back, what I lost.

 

 

He may just leave me NO CHOICE to get that back,

 

be it unrecognized from the public. And my own subconscious level

 

by attacking him in whichever timeline.

 

 

And that itself is WRONG. I am giving into my ego.

 

 

But this idiot, keep pushes on, without a sense of all this,

 

 

without a sense of who I am, or doesn't give a fuck.

 

 

 

STOP. TAUNTING.

 

 

 

If you can retaliate, do so in a civilized manner.

 

State your case logically.

 

 

Do not speak of violence.

 

 

 

 

Fucking ignorant brute.

 

 

I am not going down this road.

 

 

I have been in it forever.

 

 

Do you understand?

 

 

 

NOBODY IS A COWARD.

 

EVERYBODY RETALIATES CORNERED.

 

WHEN YOU LABEL THEM THIS,

 

YOU are the one who is being cowardly.

 

YOU are the one who is taunting to elevate into violence.

 

YOU are the one who is abandoning your own family.

 

YOU are the one who is abandoning HOPE.

 

 

 

Do you understand?

 

 

 

DO NOT ESCALATE INTO VIOLENCE NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION IS.

 

 

THIS SHOULD NOT BE GOING INTO THE REALM OF LIFE AND DEATH.

 

 

 

STATE YOUR CASE LOGICALLY IF YOU HAVE A DEFENSE.

 

DO NOT ESCALATE AND PROVOKE EMOTIONS AS YOU HAVE BEFORE.

 

 

DO NOT ABANDON RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR LIFE AT A WHIM.

 

Your past PAIN WHATEVER IT IS, does not give you the right to abandon this at a whim,

 

or to take someone else's life at a whim.

 

That is the definition of cowardice.

 

ACTING IN ABANDON.

 

That is what violence essentially is.

 

There is no regard for someone else's life, and what is in it.

 

 

 

STOP REDUCING DOWN TO THAT LEVEL AND DRAGGING SOMEONE WITH YOU.

 

 

I'm not walking down that road, when I have so much to protect.

 

 

I hope you can understand.