"opening up the heart" / being kind to people who are abusive, gloating.

 

that is called being a pushover.

 

there are people who don't learn. they continue.

 

they can't even identify the nature of the problem.

 

 

and in that haze of whatever formation they created,

they are lost with their own self-deluded reasoning.

 

it continues. it grows. it is placed in a cycle.

 

 

it is evil to allow it. please understand.

 

 

 

if it is so difficult to see,

 

look at where i am.

 

 

look at what they're doing.

 

 

 

if this is not exploitation, what is.

 

 

you, being there, seeing things in clarity.

 

you should have refined this,

 

protected me from it.

 

 

i'm sorry, but everyone is delusional.

 

 

they should be charged FULLY in accordance to the written law.

 

No excuses.

 

 

 

by the way, let me make this clear.

 

you are protecting, being lenient on people who are brutes.

 

who plays with concept of tenderness, but in the end, they do what they want.

 

the process and end result is beastly.

 

and they do not care for the outcome.

 

would they have continued this? in the open? knowing my prospects?

 

knowing what they've done?

 

i've written about what they've done, and what they admitted to,

is against the law. Many, in fact.

 

You continue to allow their gloating.

 

You thought this was entertaining.

 

You are perhaps relying on my better nature, and you forgave them of this.

 

I hide my anger. I behave. I know that it has no place in society.

 

I know it can lead to only one direction.

 

The difference, they know this as well. But they don't mind continuing what they started.

 

You allow this.

 

And I am sorry to say, my hatred is growing.

 

To everyone.

 

 

Please differentiate clearly. You cannot be doing this at my expense.

 

I am not a toy.

 

 

By the way, has Douglas mentioned another 'fight'?

 

Is that not a threat then?

 

And you, you watch this as a joke?

 

No, this is schizophrenic, violent idiot.

 

It is entirely within it,

 

and if in trouble, he will cover it as if it's a 'play'.

 

 

Now, i'm tired of convincing.  

 

 

I don't care at this point either. Do what you will.