so, by stating that I *wanted to be in this situation,

 

they are trying to turn the blame around on me?

 

 

I don't think so.

 

 

There is a difference between having a choice,

 

and inevitably having had to be in the channel,

due to the complications and ill-effect it would have on my life.

 

i can't be fighting both online and offline demons at the same time.

remember that i went to the police station in the very beginnning reporting

on what was happening and i was ignored. i was gaslit, wasn't given the link,

even when they received it.

 

and situation became more complex, as people near to me began receiving the link

to the channel. for instance:

 

when the landlords are constantly entering my room, aggressive, hostile.

it is better to stay blind. otherwise a big fight in person.

 

when in the shelter, if i am in the channel.

could i have focused on survival, if my internet connection time is

limited to the library? and I have to constantly move back and forth for food?

when i am often suffering from insomnia?

 

and yes, if you will read back on my writings, i do state that

i want to be in the channel from time to time. because there was danger

imminent. but now i see, that was gaslighting, prank. in order to

keep me distracted. by whom? if it was Mr Musk, ok, fine.

 

If it was from Biden and his associates, that is a different story.

But especially if about my mother, and threats following.

 

I can't possibly know.

 

I remember writing something, genuinely concerned,

heartbroken, saying "my life just ended." (search for this)

at the shelter.

 

were they laughing themselves to death?

 

people. look. whomever is judging right now.

 

 

they are making excuses. it is solely their responsibility to

give me my rights. since the beginning, i was misled and gaslit

by the police here in Canada, even when they received the link.

 

and i had no choice but to stay here. try as i might,

asking people to give me the link to the channel, i was ignored.

 

then at times, i stood where i was, making the best of the situation,

as that is the correct thing to do.

 

you provide the illness, i was bed-ridden. you can't blame me for fearing the very people who gave me that illness.

 

first it was Canadian authorities, then United States, ENHANCED IT.

of course, all this was started by Anna, a U.S citizen, and they didn't do anything about it as well.

 

 

no, you can't blame me for this.

 

 

i was the person helpless, and the authorities are the ones who monitor.

ones who give out the command. citizens follow.

 

and yes, i requested many times i be in the channel.

 

see the psychological, and the types of abuse that persists in the channel, by making these unreasonable excuses.

 

 

what you are buying into.